Solo-Mommy

2011-11-17T04:41:00.001-08:00

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The Birthday Month

2011-11-17T04:11:00.000-08:00

So I'm now officially 38. Starr is a teenager. Champagne is 9. Dante turns the Big 4-0 today.Things have been going very well for us. I think all the stuff I dealt with and put up with and endured because I KNEW this was the one has finally come to pass.And it's weird.He will home in exactly 7 days. Thanksgiving morning. Definitely something to give thanks for!I thought I had more to say, but

2011 Has Indeed Been an Awesome Year!!

2011-09-25T21:42:00.000-07:00

So much has happened, but there's more to come too!I finally got out of that horrible, super low paying job at ESI!! I'm now working super close to home and making quite a bit more, in my former career field of travel. I do official government travel for the US Air Force now. I work 7-10 minutes from my home. WooHoo!!!!!Speaking of home, my landlord finally couldn't handle me being so late with

2011-01-18T04:01:00.001-08:00

Happy New Year! 2011 has arrived! Resolutions?? I think NOT!!Resolutions are for suckas!! lolSeriously, why make what you know you're gonna break?? Either change or don't...the end.

Wow, I Think Steve Harvey Knows Me Personally

2010-11-17T20:38:00.000-08:00

"Nothing on this planet can compare with a woman’s love—it is kind and compassionate, patient and nurturing, generous and sweet and unconditional. Pure. If you are her man, she will walk on water and through a mountain for you, too, no matter how you’ve acted out, no matter what crazy thing you’ve done, no matter the time or demand. If you are her man, she will talk to you until there just

More Good News

2010-08-20T20:03:00.000-07:00

Things are looking up slowly but surely! I still have no money and an electric bill that is to be shut off next week, but I remain expectant!I received my reinstatement of admission letter today for school! YAY!!! What a blessing that has been. Again, I will not let anyone or anything screw this up for me again. I don't care WHAT my personal relationship situation is, it's not bad enough for me

I got a Nibble

2010-08-18T20:28:00.000-07:00

It's not the one I want, but I will take what I can get. We do what we can until we can do better, right?RIGHT??Noooo, not a guy (remember what I said this blog would be about?)! I'm talking about a job. With pay in the 2 digits per hour and actual benefits. BENEFITS. Medical, dental, paid vacation.So why am I not more excited about it? Because its a 45-50 minute commute...WITHOUT traffic. Each

The (job) Hunt Begins...

2010-08-14T21:44:00.000-07:00

OMG...I have never been so ready to get back to work in my life!!!No, no, no...don't panic. I'm still not a big Corporate America or j.o.b. fan, but I'm even LESS fond of being this damn broke! So the acronym for j.o.b. (ie, Just Over Broke) will be a STEP UP for me at this time!!!I have plans for the next few months. Those plans involved getting a few thousand dollars a month in income, getting

Eclipse...the cat not the Movie

2010-08-07T22:53:00.001-07:00

"Ahh, the common bond for man and cat!"She's actually SLEEPING like this!"Night-Night for all!""No more photos please!"That's my girl, doing what she does best! I seriously can't remember sometimes what like was like before I got my baby girl!Isis even lets me photograph her sometimes too!

Guess Who?

2010-08-06T20:30:00.000-07:00

Let's just pretend the last 2+ months didn't happen, shall we?Here's the Cliff Note version:Still with Dante. Situation is the same. I screwed up my grades and schoolwork after the helluva year I had, so now I'm on academic and financial aid probation. My ex-husband flaked on our lump-sum child support deal. Unemployment ran out. My mother had to cover my rent for July out of her disability check

2010-05-01T16:53:00.001-07:00

I keep hoping to hear his truck turning into to driveway...It doesn't look like it's gonna happen.

2010-04-24T07:13:00.001-07:00

I love my BFF to death. Let mr say that first. I couldn't imagine life without her. But sometimes she just goes way overboard on the reality of facebook status messages. Poor thing. I know we all have our quirks though. Lord knows I have mine too!

Interesting article...

2010-04-22T20:53:00.000-07:00

Dating Tips: 9 Things Happy Couples Talk About What you discuss can reveal the health of your relationship By dating editor Denise Ngo for YourTango.com Photo: Corbis Updated: Apr 14, 2010 As Eleanor Roosevelt said, great minds talk about ideas; small minds talk about people. What do you and your significant other talk about? If you

2010-04-20T20:40:00.001-07:00

Being with some new is ... different. I've been with Dante for so long, it takes getting used to just to be held by someone else. But nonetheless I am making the effort! I'm making time to be with someone who ONLY wants to be with me! Sure, right now it's still second choice. But you know what? Dante has had more chances than a cat has lives, and what has he done with them?!?!?! I'm taking

2010-04-19T16:57:00.001-07:00

"Sometimes you have to learn to love what's good for you." - Charlie Swan (Bella's dad in New Moon)

2010-04-18T06:10:00.001-07:00

If you love something, let it go. If it comes back to you, it's yours. If it doesn't, it never was.

2010-03-11T22:57:00.001-08:00

SoloMommy is annoyed that people are still complaining about wanting to see Obama's birth certificate (in a lame a$$ attempt to prove he's really NOT a US citizen)! Look, if the rest of us put up with Bush all that time (especially after what happened in his brother's state with the voting)...then accept reality and move on!!! If u just can't take it, I'm sure Canada or Mexico has room for you!!

All I Ask...

2010-02-02T20:35:00.001-08:00

I've come to the realization that it's not the time in my life for me to be married. I've accepted the fact that I may very well finish out my thirties single. I'm actually pretty okay with that. So the guy that I'm with doesn't have to feel threatened that I want to be "walking that aisle" by year's end.HOWEVER, is it too much to ask for a man to just be with me...and not biding his time between

2010-01-20T21:40:00.001-08:00

I finally ordered a wireless laptop USB card today! I am very excited! It was free and it costs $35 a month! Now I can be way more mobil while working and/or studying! Progress as Promised!

Gone...For Good

2010-01-12T20:52:00.000-08:00

We had a talk today, and he finally made a decision. I feel like before, I made the decision for him by walking away. So I decided after things had been going so well for us, to really be more aggressive and show him that I was for real. I invited him to go away for V-Day weekend to KC with me. He told me he would have to see what she wanted to do first then let me know! BLOCKED SHOT!! I had

2010-01-12T08:15:00.001-08:00

We've been seeing each other again. What's sad is how I feel about him. Even after all that was done, I still want us to be together. I know he's afraid and I see it, but his fear is no different than most when it comes to love. I just want him to take the chance with me, he wouldn't be sorry. But he's got to let the fear go first. Fear makes you do things that you shouldn't do, like leave the

I'm Such A Fool

2010-01-09T17:12:00.001-08:00

Love can be beautiful, or it can be a horrible thing. It can makes fools out if even the smartest of us! Yes, this does refer to me. I let him back into my bed. I just don want to let him out of my life, and the feeling is mutual too. So what's the problem, right?He is still with her. He spent all of the last three major holidays with her. Thanksgiving and New Years in Memphis, and christmas here

I heard his voice

2010-01-03T20:21:00.000-08:00

I talked to him tonight. I guess I'm still so hurt and therefore guarded that it was not a relief. I have so much frustration towards him, and I hate not being able to get it out. But what's the use? He's not gonna change. He and Gwen, for reasons I will never understand based on the information I have, are together. That is HIS choice, it is HIS life, and it is HIS mistake. I cannot change it,

2010-01-02T00:52:00.001-08:00

I just realized something. I haven't talked to Dante on the phone - I mean actually heard his voice - in over a week. Wow how things change with time! There was a point not so long ago that I was addicted to that lovely voice...from the first time I ever heard it I was hooked. It is no longer "my voice", and I'm finally accepting that deep down, so I no longer crave it like I used to. Yes, I said

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

2009-12-31T23:31:00.000-08:00

Yes!! It is 2010!! I made it and I made it smiling! For a while there I didn't think I would. Yes, sure I would have loved to been one of the people who kissed in the new year with that special someone. But hey, that is not for me right now, and I am so okay with that. That doesn't mean that I have to act like a nun and vow solitude, cause I am not! As a matter of fact, I am definitely taking

2009-12-29T10:51:00.001-08:00

I never thought it would end like this...I hope he gets himself together one day. I would love to get my friend back.

2009-12-27T22:52:00.001-08:00

Something that gives me great comfort: One of the differences between Dante and me is that I would never bail on/sell out my friends for a piece of ass. Guess that's another part of the "fiercely loyal" part of my zodiac sign I take seriously (that he apparently does not). It's all good though! Can't worry about his path anymore, I've got my own. And we all know they are obviously NOT going in

I CANNOT Start the New Year Out Like This...

2009-12-26T19:34:00.000-08:00

With the choices I have in men at this moment, I would definitely be better off by my damn self! Perhaps I should go ahead and pay the fees and see what some of these matches on eharmony or match.com may have for me! Surely it has to be better than what I have now!!Wayne had one simple task, see his daughter on Christmas so she could give him his present. Well, it's the day after Christmas and I

The Eve of Christmas Eve

2009-12-23T18:29:00.001-08:00

That it is. I have basically finished what little shopping I am doing this year. I already told the Delightful Children it would be a lean Christmas this year. But I had a great day with my big sis, Leigh today. Dante and I are currently in the Friends with Benefits category currently, mainly because I'm greedy. Sure, he thinks it's him but this is all about me and what I want. We have been

2009-12-11T07:21:00.001-08:00

Where are the men who truly APPRECIATE REAL LOVE from a GOOD WOMAN?!? I am still waiting for that! Men want to be treated like kings and for you to show them that you're committed to them with actions, WITHOUT doing the same for you?!? WTH??? I distinctly remember love being a TWO-way street! So that means if you want to be treated like a king, you must trust your woman like a QUEEN! What's kinda

This Just In!!!

2009-11-29T16:27:00.000-08:00

I AM SINGLE...AGAIN.

Why Is It That...

2009-11-29T07:13:00.001-08:00

Women have to be a bitch in order to get respect from a man? I have been everything for and to this man (and countless others previously), and everytime I get fucked over?? EVERY TIME. I mean silly me for thinking that people (read:men) really do believe in the Golden Rule. Apparently I'm the only one that does.I've been forgiving of the indiscretions, the insultingly lied-about hickeys, been a

As Bad As I Want To...

2009-11-28T16:47:00.001-08:00

I'm not gonna cry again. It hurts like HELL to not be enough. It makes me angry that I seem to only find men with monster issues that end up causing me heartbreak. Attention men: if you are mentally screwed up right now, do everyone a favor-DO NOT DATE!!!! Stop dragging women into your shit!! You are not the only person in the world that has been hurt you know! Most likely the woman (or women)

It Rained, But Today Was Still Cool

2009-11-24T14:14:00.000-08:00

I didn't do much today. I washed my hair in the shower and let it airdry. I actually ate breakfast today. 2 boiled eggs, 2 slices of canadian bacon, and 2 pieces of toast (no butter) with suger-free apricot butter. I didn't do it specifically for weight loss or anything, I just had a taste for that!Last night Dante and I ended much better than we started the day. I felt good about that. Even sent

2009-11-23T18:46:00.001-08:00

So I can better record my thoughts and feelings as they happen, I'm now a mobile blogger!

Today Was Not Good

2009-11-23T15:28:00.000-08:00

I guess after not hearing from him yesterday, it had just really taken it's toll on me. He sent me a good morning text and that was about it till the afternoon. He actually called me. I was shocked and happy. Until I heard how he sounded, so depressed. He talked for a while and I just listened. I am a very good listener. He told me about a dream he had of him coming back here to live and not

A Better Day

2009-11-22T22:15:00.000-08:00

Well, for starters, I completely played hooky from church today. Yes, it was a choir day too. Yes, I needed this time to myself even more. I honestly had nothing in me to give today. I was just that drained.I did basically nothing today. Dante and I had a brief text convo early in the day and nothing since then. That's been difficult for me. But I am better. I made the decision that I am better

Time Wasted

2009-11-21T15:31:00.000-08:00

I'm starting to feel that way more and more. Just when I felt like my words and actions were getting through to him, he goes to the movies with Gwen last night!! WTF??!!He has no intention to make a decision on what he really wants. Even as this entire situation that HE CREATED, this damn mess that he put us in has just blown up in his face, he still wants to keep everything as is. Gwen and I are

A Letter To Dante

2009-11-19T05:35:00.001-08:00

This has only been edited to change one name and add a word that I forgot. Otherwise, this is how I emailed it to him after a conversation we had yesterday. There is a part that is not G-rated.I have to get this out while it's on my mind. I knew I couldn't call back because you were probably already with "someone" (she has a name and I know it, so no sense in being vague).I have been thinking

Congrats to my daughter!

2009-11-18T22:28:00.000-08:00

Starr participated in the annual district spelling bee tonight, for the second year in a row. Out of the fourteen contestants, she got down to number four!! Yeah, to some 4th place is not a winner. But guess what? That means that she is the 4th best speller out of hundreds of fifth graders in the school district!! So that's damn good to me!!Her dad didn't make it, what a surprise. He actually

IT GOT WORSE

2009-11-17T19:35:00.000-08:00

The day started out just fine. Church was awesome. Spent some time at my grandmother's with my family. My ex came and picked up DJ and Bruzer when him and his girlfriend got out of church. About 30 minutes before I planned to leave, I got a phone call that was blocked. Thinking it could be business-related, I answered it.It was not.It was a woman claiming to be Dante's "baby's momma", saying she

2012

2009-11-14T19:47:00.001-08:00

Took the kids to see 2012 today! AWESOME!!!! The disaster movie to end all disaster movies!!!!Star-studded cast too! This also brings us days closer to the next big movie of the year, New Moon on November 20!I got to see him today. It was nice. I didn't want him to leave. I tried to play it cool, but I know my eyes gave me away. I have very expressive eyes. I did finally come right out and say I

It's Hard But I Am Surviving

2009-11-13T20:21:00.000-08:00

I keep a very light-hearted mood about it most of the time, but we all know breaking up is hard to do. Especially when both parties don't necessarily want to break up but it seems to be the best thing to do right now...cause one of the parties doesn't have her financial shit together and the other party has emotional ISSUES that won't let him do right by the woman who is willing to give him the

It Was All for Nothing

2009-11-12T08:30:00.000-08:00

Guess who got dumped anyway?Long story short (cliff note style):I had a hard time with the fact that she basically spent the weekend at his place. So I talked to him and vented it about it Sunday morning before church.He was coming in town the next evening (my birthday) to attend a veteran's job fair the next day. Supposedly he had decided to move back home, though he really doesn't want to.All

I Know I'm Nuts When...

2009-11-06T21:43:00.001-08:00

...I can have upbeat conversations with my boyfriend knowing that he's spending the evening (and night) with the chick on the side! We've been texting all evening. He'd leave and call me and we would laugh and talk like normal. I just got off the phone with him at almost midnight and he was heading in the door to his apt where she still is!Yes! Slightly insane I know! But I never said I was

Happy Birthday Starr!!

2009-11-02T21:22:00.000-08:00

She's 11 today. (Yes, that is Transformers. Yes, she picked it all by herself!)I can remember the day she was born like it was yesterday. It started out a beautiful San Diego day as usual. I was relieved the weekend was over, and she wasn't born on Halloween! I was supposed to go in to work that day and fill in for someone else who was out. But I called my supervisor and told him I just couldn't

What an Awesome Time I Had!!!

2009-11-01T22:36:00.000-08:00

The party Friday night was great! I got to see a lot of people from the old high school days. I was with a group of girls that I knew, Kween was one of them. It was great! You know what? I decided I would not be a wall flower this time, that I was gonna have me some fun. I was NOT gonna just sit at the table and chit chat! Hell, I can do that on the phone!! lol I also decided that I wasn't gonna

Better Than To Tell A Lie

2009-10-30T16:15:00.000-07:00

Dante and I had a great talk to really clear the air from what happened in my last post. Part of it was that I was having a bad day and he knew I was having a bad day. So a part of my mind was like "see how much he cares about you"! But we cleared up alot. I asked the tough questions and got the honest answers. He knows exactly how I feel about the situation, but that I'm willing to deal with it

Truth Hurts

2009-10-29T21:43:00.000-07:00

So I haven't heard from Dante for several hours this evening. I knew why.No, he didn't tell me beforehand. I just knew.So he send me a text at a little after 11p asking was I sleep, to which I replied 'No'. He asked what I was doing, I asked what he was doing. He replied, 'Honestly, I'm driving home.'I asked from where, and he said I didn't wanna know. Like I told him, "Doesn't that tell me what

So Mad At Myself

2009-10-29T20:08:00.000-07:00

I've had a crappy day. I've been so mad at myself today. Even had a pity party for a while. Why?Because I am so sick and tired of this saboteur inside of me that consistently ROBS me of my dreams!My so-called comfort zone is still set to 'Struggling Mode', so no matter what I get, I will subconciously get myself back to that point.How am I gonna get my Denali like that??But, I'm done with the

The Ups and Downs of Life

2009-10-18T19:27:00.001-07:00

So Dante is officially cheating on me. We had a conversation about the last time he was here. What bothers me most is that it wasn't what I thought it was. It wasn't just sex to 'tide him over' until we were together again. That I could deal with a lot easier. But oh no, no, no. It was spending time with the woman, meeting her family, going to her damn family reunion! WTF??!! Our agreement was to

Preconceived Notions

2009-10-18T18:21:00.001-07:00

Why do people insist upon passing judgments? I just don't understand that. Dante told me he talked to his father about me the other day. What's funny is his father's main question once he learned that I had four children was "Is she looking for someone to take care of them?"WTF????!!!! That's a lot of damn nerve to be quite frank about it! I mean of course that's what he would ask. Sadly, that's

My New Home!

2009-10-13T22:38:00.000-07:00

Still Going Up!

2009-09-14T16:33:00.000-07:00

Well, the exact thing that I wanted to happen is happening! I said that when (not if) I got a new place to live that it would have been so impossible to do on my own that God would get all the credit.Glory to God!!!!I didn't even get to see the inside of the house because the tenant didn't bother to be home! Whatever, minor detail. I looked in the windows. It's small, for sure. But the yard is

And the Roller Coaster Continues...

2009-09-11T21:08:00.000-07:00

Things are back on the upswing right now. Shocking, I know! Not just as far as the relationship goes, but just life in general. I am going to look at a house tomorrow that I am believing for and have already thanked God that it's mine. (In the name of Jesus) It's a very cute house, single-story, maybe 5 minutes tops from here...so the kids don't have to change schools. Huge fenced yard in the

Lots of Discord

2009-09-10T07:09:00.000-07:00

SO many things going crazy right now. School isn't going so well due to the stress of home-hunting and moving on the horizon. The home thing itself is enough to cause me to have an aneurism. And to top it all off, the relationship is sucking right now too. It may just be me, because I know I have some underlying feelings about him not coming home now. I'm mad and hurt and sad and disappointed and

Pushed Away

2009-08-30T19:08:00.000-07:00

Ever get the feeling you're being pushed away? Maybe it's just PMS, but that's how I feel. Dante came in this weekend and well, let's say we've had MUCH better visits before. This one, I was more like a pit stop or afterthought for him. He stopped in Friday and I took him to get a state ID. We saw each other for a total of maybe 45 minutes. I expected him to come back that night and....well, he

Interesting Few Days

2009-08-19T08:54:00.000-07:00

Such ups and downs, mentally and emotionally. And it actually has nothing to do with my relationship with Dante for once! Shocking, I know!School started back for me on Monday and the kids started their half day today. So far so good!I just finished working a quick shift before time to go get the kids.Fighting depression is hard work. We'll talk more later...

Funny How Things Happen

2009-08-12T05:21:00.000-07:00

Never did talk to Dante that Monday night. He sent me a text early yesterday morning asking was I working. No. So he called a few minutes later. We talked a bit. I mentioned how he didn't talk to me all day and he said he was mad. Are you kidding me? You're getting messy and I call you on it, and you're mad? Of course he never admitted to wrong doing or having anyone there, but I refused to let

I Am The Prize

2009-08-10T19:18:00.000-07:00

I have to remind myself of that today, and everyday from now on. Today has been very difficult as far as relationships go. I discovered last night that everytime I talked to Dante yesterday, he was mobile. I even tested the theory when he arrived home last night. Before he got to his apartment, he got off the phone with me. He told me he would be fixing him something to eat and headed to bed. It

School Shopping Blows...and other news

2009-08-10T05:09:00.000-07:00

For the last two days, I have been clothes shopping for the delightful children. Total, minus shoes? $300!! Ouch!! Payless BOGO starts Tuesday, so that will be even more money. But I am definitely going to try and recoup some from Wayne at least. I finally got my tire fixed yesterday also, at the cost of choir day and choir rehearsal. I am so bummed about that. Not to mention another $200 for 2

Summer is Winding Down

2009-08-06T05:11:00.000-07:00

It doesn't look like there will be any more trips this summer for us. I'm glad we had such an awesome time at HolidayWorld last month!In less than 2 weeks, we will all be back in school again. Bruzer will be starting Kindergarten and DJ will be starting junior high! I'll be moving on up the college ladder, heading towards being a junior! I am so excited! It's nice to hear my mom and my sister say

He Really Does Care!

2009-07-27T06:37:00.000-07:00

Okay, so I know I have been complaining about Dante not being as emotional with me as I would like. I mean the "Big Three Words" are rarely exchanged, sometimes to the point of making me wonder if he really does. I even asked the other day for clarification.Then he turns around and comes into town and surprises me!Then he tells me he's already on the road headed back to Memphis, and then shows up

Surprise, Surprise!

2009-07-26T07:09:00.001-07:00

Well, Dante did it again! He told me on Friday that he was going to a wedding with a friend of his. He also told me not to expect to see him until like August. I was having a meloncholy day yesterday about my feelings. I was really frustrated because he's not as emotional as I would like. I mean, 'I love you' doesn't flow very freely in this relationship. AT ALL.I talked to him that morning

Test

2009-07-26T06:48:00.001-07:00

Just checkingSent from my iPhone

School's Out!

2009-07-21T21:45:00.000-07:00

Finals are over! Yay!! I did great on one (Spanish) and I am just praying for a 'C' on the other! I spent the day at Scott AFB taking the proctored (read: supervised) exams at their Park extension campus. Yes, many airmen. Yes, many men in their uniforms. Yes, there is something about a man in uniform. No, none of them looked as good to me as Dante does in his! I guess I really am sprung on this

In a Good Place

2009-07-18T20:46:00.000-07:00

I'm still in the same duplex, and I am fine with it. I looked and looked, I mean literally driving street to street. Nothing was fruitful. I was so stressed, it was all consuming. I talked to my neighbor one night coming home. She asked me did I have any luck yet finding a place. We basically shared each other's sentiment that there's nothing out there in a 3 bedroom in our budget and remotely

Recovering

2009-07-11T19:33:00.000-07:00

It's been a not-so-great couple of days. I just want to crawl under a rock right now. Just found out today online that Wayne and 'that girl' got married over a month ago...and he didn't tell me. That really upset and hurt me. It upset me because we've had countless discussions about the need for us not to lie to each other, we're past that stage in our lives (or so I thought). It also upset me

What About Me? What About Us?

2009-07-09T21:24:00.000-07:00

I have a lot to talk about. Mainly the awesome time we had in Indiana at HolidayWorld the past couple of days! I will definitely be going back next year! But that post is for another time.The reason for that post title is because I just got off the phone with Dante. We were talking about his reluctance to leave Memphis and how, if all things in his situation were straight, he would stay there.

Blessings From Above!!

2009-07-03T23:52:00.000-07:00

So I was checking my email from Park and got an interesting email about an ACH refund being processed. So I went to check my bank account and lo and behold! There was a good size deposit in there!!! I wasn't even aware I was getting a Pell grant, but that's what it was! What a blessing!!!Now I don't have to worry as much! I can put that aside for my moving fund. I was able to get my car fixed

Anxiety

2009-07-02T04:33:00.000-07:00

Please bear with me today. I have a mountain of anxiety building up and I feel like this volcano is about to blow its top off soon.Why so much anxiety? Well, I am supposed to be going on a trip with the kids and my sisters to Holiday World in a few days. As of today, I have the money. However, that money also needs to cover getting my car repaired (otherwise it's not 4-hr highway driveworthy),

Sometimes I Wonder

2009-06-30T22:07:00.001-07:00

Sometimes I wonder if what happened in Dante's past has ruined him forever.Sometimes I wonder if he still looks at this as a casual thing, or if takes it seriously.Sometimes I wonder will he ever just open up and allow himself to love and be loved HARD again.Time will reveal (but hopefully not too much time)

My First Choir Day

2009-06-28T04:28:00.001-07:00

I've been awake now for half an hour. Getting ready to wake the kids for this very long day at church. This was definitely a larger commitment than I would have planned on. I like the idea of doing everything in one day...until you take into account the single mom with noone else to watch her children. They don't have childcare first service, so I will have to rely on my oldest two heavily.One

A Day of Losses

2009-06-25T23:02:00.000-07:00

Farrah Fawcett lost her 2 year battle with cancer this morning at 62 years of age.Then, this afternoon and out-of-the-blue Michael Jackson collapsed and died today at the age of 50! He would have been 51 in a couple of months.My prayers to their families for God's Comforting Hand to get them through this time. I keep thinking about poor Katherine losing her son. I know they'll be okay though, as

Brighter Days

2009-06-24T22:24:00.000-07:00

Today was a new thing for me. I taught my first youth group Wednesday night class for grades 4-6! I think the kids were bored out of their mind, and I think I could have done A LOT better but....I Did It!! I'm so proud of myself for doing so! I will end up teaching once a month because the other lady and I alternate weeks teaching. Wow, I'm doing this! All steps to my God-given path!Keep this up

This Has Not Been A Good Day

2009-06-22T21:21:00.000-07:00

It started out okay. DJ went on his overnight camping trip. That was fine.I found out I wouldn't get to make up a spanish quiz I missed Saturday. Not fine.Work started out going well, then halfway through my shift my DSL croaked! I missed the last hour of that shift, no showed an hour and a half of the next shift before I was finally able to give up the rest of my hours that day. I have a service

The Best Revenge for Naysayers?

2009-06-22T21:10:00.000-07:00

PROVE THEM WRONG!!!!

Did I Mention I Was Dramatic!!

2009-06-21T22:59:00.001-07:00

Okay, okay. Let's blame most of the last couple of days on hormones, shall we? Thanks for understanding.I talked to Dante finally this evening at about 7p, which was VERY shocking because that's totally not like him. I mean honestly, even if he was with someone else, most likely I wouldn't know because we'd be texting most of the day. So this was completely abnormal. I went from being pissed off

Gotta Get Back To Normal

2009-06-21T12:57:00.000-07:00

Freaking out today. Because I haven't heard from Dante since yesterday afternoon. I missed his call last night at about 720p while I was outside at grandmother's house. I called back when I saw it at 8p but no answer home or cell. Sent a goodnight text message at 11p. Nada. He sent a good morning text at about 7a to say he had passed out last night, he just woke up but was still sleepy so he

Trying to Be Better

2009-06-20T22:29:00.000-07:00

I have so much going on in my head right now. I'm a little better than I was the other day, but not much. Unfortunately, we had a conversation about 'most men' thinking a woman with four kids is "damaged goods". Of course he assured me that he doesn't think that way, but most of the men he's talked to wouldn't even give a woman with 4 kids the time of day. I assured him that I have no problem

He Came, He Went, We Enjoyed Thoroughly

2009-06-19T05:48:00.000-07:00

Dante left yesterday morning. It was a very good visit. As I mentioned before, he also found out he did not get promoted so he will getting out of the military in a couple of months. Because he has so much leave still on the books, he will actually be home around mid-August for good. I know! It's hard to believe that after almost 2 years, this won't be a long distance relationship anymore!Yes,

I Finally Did It!

2009-06-18T20:50:00.000-07:00

I joined choir at church today! I actually had a dream about going to choir practice on Friday night, and opened email on Saturday to tell me there would be an informational meeting on Sunday! You're right! I definitely took that as my cue!What a huge commitment this will be! We have 3 services and the choir performs at all three on the 2nd and 4th Sunday of the month. Then after service, we have

Back to Work

2009-06-13T22:28:00.000-07:00

Well, I passed my certification, so I am officially on the phones now! WooHoo!! My first day taking calls was today...not-so-great. My talk time was extremely high, which made me feel like a failure. I will continue to work on that. Classes are going okay so far. Finishing up training put my schoolwork on the back burner a bit. I should be ok though, gotta stay dedicated. My Sweetie made it into

On the Phones Again...

2009-06-09T20:16:00.001-07:00

My first day on the phones went great! Okay, make that pretty good. My talk time was high, but that's mainly due to learning my resources. I didn't really blow any though I don't think. I thought I would have some feedback by now in the form of an email, but nothing thus far, so I guess she'll talk about it tomorrow.I'll let you know how tomorrow goes.

Great and Informative Article

2009-06-08T12:12:00.000-07:00