Took the kids to see 2012 today! AWESOME!!!! The disaster movie to end all disaster movies!!!!
Star-studded cast too! This also brings us days closer to the next big movie of the year, New Moon on November 20!
I got to see him today. It was nice. I didn't want him to leave. I tried to play it cool, but I know my eyes gave me away. I have very expressive eyes. I did finally come right out and say I wanted him here with me, and that was hard for me to do. He said he wanted to be here also, and he would let me know later. But I just found out he's gonna go to the late show to watch 2012. I would love to go, but it won't be out til almost 130a, and it's just too late to ask for a babysitter. The only choice is my niece and I can't imagine her mom would be okay with that. So, I will see him tomorrow then. He invited me to the retirement ceremony tomorrow afternoon, which was a surprise. DJ and Bruzer will be with DJ's dad, and I will drop Starr and Champagne at grandmother's with my mom. It was nice of him to offer.
Well, I think it's shower then bedtime for me, no sense in waiting up. I have church at 930a, so we need to be up and moving by 8a. I need a mental rest, my mind is exhausted.
p.s. It's nice to know this is as hard on him as it is on me. It tells me that he cares a lot for me. Hopefully, it tells him that too.
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November 14, 2009
June 24, 2009
Brighter Days
Today was a new thing for me. I taught my first youth group Wednesday night class for grades 4-6! I think the kids were bored out of their mind, and I think I could have done A LOT better but....I Did It!! I'm so proud of myself for doing so! I will end up teaching once a month because the other lady and I alternate weeks teaching. Wow, I'm doing this! All steps to my God-given path!
Keep this up and I may actually get my business going too!
In addition, Dante and I hashed out out issue last night...after NOT talking all day. I won't go into all the details, but I will say he's got some baggage that he needs to unpack eventually. It was truly a case of one person reminding you of something another person (that hurt you) used to do. You completely overreact to the new person! I explained to him as understandingly as I could that I am not her, he's known me for enough time to know that I am not that way, and I don't want to be punished for things she did or didn't do.
You know the suck thing about long distance arguments?? It ruins the make-up period!!
Now, for the biggest part of this post:
Keep this up and I may actually get my business going too!
In addition, Dante and I hashed out out issue last night...after NOT talking all day. I won't go into all the details, but I will say he's got some baggage that he needs to unpack eventually. It was truly a case of one person reminding you of something another person (that hurt you) used to do. You completely overreact to the new person! I explained to him as understandingly as I could that I am not her, he's known me for enough time to know that I am not that way, and I don't want to be punished for things she did or didn't do.
You know the suck thing about long distance arguments?? It ruins the make-up period!!
Now, for the biggest part of this post:
Transformers 2 was OMFG Awesome!!!!!!
It was so far beyond what I could have expected! Action, comedy, drama, and I even got a little misty-eyed at one point! As much as I L-O-V-E the first one, I can honestly say this one is even better!!! Just go see it!!!
p.s. Happy Birthday Sensation! Love You Man!
It was so far beyond what I could have expected! Action, comedy, drama, and I even got a little misty-eyed at one point! As much as I L-O-V-E the first one, I can honestly say this one is even better!!! Just go see it!!!
p.s. Happy Birthday Sensation! Love You Man!
June 6, 2009
OMG!!!!!!
Okay, Okay. I know I said summer is here and I'm all excited but, THIS makes me anxious for November:
I actually screamed out loud when I saw it! So far, that is exactly the way the book went! I CANNOT WAIT!!!
I actually screamed out loud when I saw it! So far, that is exactly the way the book went! I CANNOT WAIT!!!
April 28, 2009
Not Easily Broken
Cycle time...and I watched that movie! What a beautiful and complicated story! Definitely watch it!
It got me to thinking about a few things too. The wife's mother had a very instrumental part in the marriage. So much so that it almost led to divorce! Turns out she was filled with bitterness and unforgiveness herself from her marriage, so of course that's all she'd project on her daughter's situation. At one point, I actually watched her plant a negative seed in her daughter's mind about him having an affair. Words are very powerful, I cannot stress that enough. Towards the end she told her husband that while she learned how to be a strong, independent woman, she was never taught how to be a supportive, loving, and forgiving wife. That reminded me of something The Officer always quotes that our mother said: "When a man leaves - when not if, because they always leave..."
WTF??? Is it a wonder that I am twice-divorced??
Mind you, had I not heard this constantly said by my sister I would've had no recollection of it. To think that that's something she chooses to keep as a valuable pearl of wisdom is also a testament to my lack of surprise that she is still single!
So then I wonder about myself. What did I learn from two-failed marriages that I was never taught as a young lady?
I can say that - although it was a hard and painful road - I am glad I am here now. I may not be at the point of being a wife again just yet, but I'm more confident than ever before that I'm ready for it! Third times the charm, they say...
It got me to thinking about a few things too. The wife's mother had a very instrumental part in the marriage. So much so that it almost led to divorce! Turns out she was filled with bitterness and unforgiveness herself from her marriage, so of course that's all she'd project on her daughter's situation. At one point, I actually watched her plant a negative seed in her daughter's mind about him having an affair. Words are very powerful, I cannot stress that enough. Towards the end she told her husband that while she learned how to be a strong, independent woman, she was never taught how to be a supportive, loving, and forgiving wife. That reminded me of something The Officer always quotes that our mother said: "When a man leaves - when not if, because they always leave..."
WTF??? Is it a wonder that I am twice-divorced??
Mind you, had I not heard this constantly said by my sister I would've had no recollection of it. To think that that's something she chooses to keep as a valuable pearl of wisdom is also a testament to my lack of surprise that she is still single!
So then I wonder about myself. What did I learn from two-failed marriages that I was never taught as a young lady?
- I learned to pick my battles. Being right or getting the last word isn't always the most important thing. Peace in the home is always better.
- I learned that only two mortals belong in the marriage: the husband and the wife. Not my mom, not his mom, not my friends or my siblings. Usually the advice-givers' situations are as bad or worse than recipient's!
- I learned that without a strong foundation resting in God, the marriage will surely fail. The minute we as a couple began to stray from God in my first marriage, the trials came in like a tsunami. Obviously, we drowned.
- I learned to be supportive of my husband...even if I don't necessarily agree with the idea!
- I learned to be respectful of my husband, at all times and in all situations. This also means not allowing others (read:family and friends) to disrespect him either.
- I learned that no matter what anyone else says, intimacy is a MAJOR part of the marriage. When that deteriorates under normal circumstances, so does the rest of the relationship.
- I learned that it's okay not to be head of household!!
- I learned that I am not afraid to be a biblically-based submissive wife to my God-fearing husband. And it doesn't make me less of a "strong black woman" to want to be one either!!
I can say that - although it was a hard and painful road - I am glad I am here now. I may not be at the point of being a wife again just yet, but I'm more confident than ever before that I'm ready for it! Third times the charm, they say...
October 17, 2008
Tyler Perry Makes History
I hadn't read this story before, it came out a few weeks ago. But, how wonderful! What an inspiration to all of us! I really like what he says about Oprah, I'll put it in bold:
History was made Saturday night, when Tyler Perry became the first African-American ever to launch his own major TV and film studio.
But that wasn't the only reason Will Smith was tipping his hat to Perry at the gala Atlanta event in the old Delta Airlines headquarters [ WOW! ] that now serve as Perry's studio.
"I admire most that he can be that tall and wear a white suit," said Smith, 40, never to waste a punch line. "I usually have to avoid white. At this height, you don't tend to look sexy in white suits, but he pulled it off."
The same could be said when it came to Perry's impressive guest list, which brought out the top names from past and present Hollywood and other spheres of influence: Oprah Winfrey, Sidney Poitier, Ruby Dee, Cicely Tyson, Louis Gossett, Jr., Holly Robinson Peete, Tracey Edmonds, music mogul L.A. Reid, singer John Legend, America's Next Top Model winner Eva Pigford, not to mention baseball legends Hank Aaron and Barry Bonds – among others.
A New Orleans native with a troubled childhood, Perry, 39, credited all of his guests with inspiring his life. Of Winfrey, who attended the celebration with longtime beau Stedman Graham and best friend Gayle King, Perry said, "She owns her life. I am learning that. I never would have shown this to people a few years ago. I was embarrassed by the success."
As a large cast of attendants passed around champagne and tissues for the teary-eyed (who were many), Perry shared his rags-to-riches story over a large video screen that eventually gave way to a live singer and band delivering "The Impossible Dream," followed by a fireworks display. Mary J. Blige, Patti Labelle and Gladys Knight also treated guests to separate performances.
At one point, Perry unveiled a special surprise for veteran trailblazers Poitier, Dee and Tyson: each now has a soundstage named after him and her.
"Is this my wall?" joked Poitier – as Winfrey dissolved into tears.
"This is an American first, and the first in the universe," said the I Am Legend star. "There is something happening in America and in the world that's powerful. He is not letting anyone get in his way.
"Those are the wonderfully naïve, arrogant, humble, powerfully American concepts that make things powerful in this country. It's big."
History was made Saturday night, when Tyler Perry became the first African-American ever to launch his own major TV and film studio.
But that wasn't the only reason Will Smith was tipping his hat to Perry at the gala Atlanta event in the old Delta Airlines headquarters [ WOW! ] that now serve as Perry's studio.
"I admire most that he can be that tall and wear a white suit," said Smith, 40, never to waste a punch line. "I usually have to avoid white. At this height, you don't tend to look sexy in white suits, but he pulled it off."
The same could be said when it came to Perry's impressive guest list, which brought out the top names from past and present Hollywood and other spheres of influence: Oprah Winfrey, Sidney Poitier, Ruby Dee, Cicely Tyson, Louis Gossett, Jr., Holly Robinson Peete, Tracey Edmonds, music mogul L.A. Reid, singer John Legend, America's Next Top Model winner Eva Pigford, not to mention baseball legends Hank Aaron and Barry Bonds – among others.
And Oprah Cried
"I spent 56 years making movies and this is the reward that I have that means the most to me," said Poitier, 81, the first African-American to win a Best Actor Oscar, for 1963's Lilies of the Field.A New Orleans native with a troubled childhood, Perry, 39, credited all of his guests with inspiring his life. Of Winfrey, who attended the celebration with longtime beau Stedman Graham and best friend Gayle King, Perry said, "She owns her life. I am learning that. I never would have shown this to people a few years ago. I was embarrassed by the success."
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At one point, Perry unveiled a special surprise for veteran trailblazers Poitier, Dee and Tyson: each now has a soundstage named after him and her.
"Is this my wall?" joked Poitier – as Winfrey dissolved into tears.
Tide of Change
All joking aside, it was Will Smith who best summed up Perry's accomplishment and the tide of change taking place in America today."This is an American first, and the first in the universe," said the I Am Legend star. "There is something happening in America and in the world that's powerful. He is not letting anyone get in his way.
"Those are the wonderfully naïve, arrogant, humble, powerfully American concepts that make things powerful in this country. It's big."
June 28, 2008
Meet The Browns
That movie was really something. It had me in tears on parts that noone else except someone who's been there would understand. From the not enough food to the utilities being turned off (will never in my life forget hearing Starr ask if we were going to die of thirst, after learning that the water was turned off) to the threats of no daycare for non-payment. Since I know Tyler Perry didn't secretly stalk me just to write this movie, I know I am not alone! But wow, it was almost like watching Angela Bassett (who I love as an actress) portray parts of my life. And yeah whatever, I know it was a movie, but I still believe that if I keep doing the right thing and praying (which I will do more of), I will get my "happily ever after" too.
Quite a surreal experience, to say the least!
Now, where is Rick Fox...I'm waiting!
Quite a surreal experience, to say the least!
Now, where is Rick Fox...I'm waiting!
May 21, 2008
P.S. I Love You
That movie is right up there with The Notebook for sure! My eyes are still puffy and swollen! I think I bawled like a little girl on that one! Just beautiful! AND I am very partial to Harry Connick, Jr anyway? Absolutely fabulous!
Not feeling very loved these days and frankly, I don't like it. Dante has "stuff" going on again, so I seem to get pushed to the back burner while he deals with it. Yeah, I don't like it much either. But hell, what can I really do about it right now? Call him and yell at him and demand he start paying me more attention? Some would I know, but I most likely won't. Why not, you ask?
I don't know okay? I don't really know.
I mean yeah on the surface I am being considerate of his feelings and the stress of his situation and all that stuff, that is very true. But I also know there is another reason under there as to why I won't really assert myself that way. Mostly because although we've talked about the possibility of there being an "us", we haven't made that a definite just yet. It's not like he'll initiate that conversation with me. I mean, remember, he is a MAN after all. And I don't want to be that typical broad that brings up the whiny "what about us? are we gonna take this to the next level?" chick either, so therein lies my dilemma.
Well, then, what do I do about this perpetual state of uncertainty I live in romantically?
I ignore it, of course!
That is, until I go and do something wreckless like watch P.S. I Love You or The Notebook or The Lake House! When will I ever learn? :-)
Now it's off to bed alone, just wishing I could be held by someone who cares about me...
Not feeling very loved these days and frankly, I don't like it. Dante has "stuff" going on again, so I seem to get pushed to the back burner while he deals with it. Yeah, I don't like it much either. But hell, what can I really do about it right now? Call him and yell at him and demand he start paying me more attention? Some would I know, but I most likely won't. Why not, you ask?
I don't know okay? I don't really know.
I mean yeah on the surface I am being considerate of his feelings and the stress of his situation and all that stuff, that is very true. But I also know there is another reason under there as to why I won't really assert myself that way. Mostly because although we've talked about the possibility of there being an "us", we haven't made that a definite just yet. It's not like he'll initiate that conversation with me. I mean, remember, he is a MAN after all. And I don't want to be that typical broad that brings up the whiny "what about us? are we gonna take this to the next level?" chick either, so therein lies my dilemma.
Well, then, what do I do about this perpetual state of uncertainty I live in romantically?
I ignore it, of course!
That is, until I go and do something wreckless like watch P.S. I Love You or The Notebook or The Lake House! When will I ever learn? :-)
Now it's off to bed alone, just wishing I could be held by someone who cares about me...
May 3, 2008
Iron Man Really Rocked!!
It was totally worth the wait this week (and the $40 total at the theatre) to see it!
After we left there, we went to my younger sister's house. My older brother, Ray, was in town for his birthday, so they were having a dinner celebration for him. We laughed ridiculously, and had a great time. I even ate birthday cake and a little ice cream. The kids were really great too, which they usually are honestly. We stopped at Viv's house to drop off some clothes for her son that my grandmother sent, we stayed and chatted there for about an hour and a half. So by the time we got home, the kids went straight upstairs and crashed!
One eerie thing I noticed on the way to my sister's house. I had to pass PsychoRev's old street, or so I thought it was his "old street". I was sure he would have left the area by now, but I was wrong. AND, although it was a 2 bedroom apartment, I am now convinced he didn't get married as he told me he did the November immediately after we broke up for good. I never believed it anyway, but knowing he still lives in that apartment just confirms it. I guess now that he has popped into my head again, and I am completely emotionally healed from the damage he did (and that I allowed him to do), I can tell that story....
...in the morning. I'm going to bed!
p.s. I carried the microwave cart in the house tonight. All. By. Myself.
After we left there, we went to my younger sister's house. My older brother, Ray, was in town for his birthday, so they were having a dinner celebration for him. We laughed ridiculously, and had a great time. I even ate birthday cake and a little ice cream. The kids were really great too, which they usually are honestly. We stopped at Viv's house to drop off some clothes for her son that my grandmother sent, we stayed and chatted there for about an hour and a half. So by the time we got home, the kids went straight upstairs and crashed!
One eerie thing I noticed on the way to my sister's house. I had to pass PsychoRev's old street, or so I thought it was his "old street". I was sure he would have left the area by now, but I was wrong. AND, although it was a 2 bedroom apartment, I am now convinced he didn't get married as he told me he did the November immediately after we broke up for good. I never believed it anyway, but knowing he still lives in that apartment just confirms it. I guess now that he has popped into my head again, and I am completely emotionally healed from the damage he did (and that I allowed him to do), I can tell that story....
...in the morning. I'm going to bed!
p.s. I carried the microwave cart in the house tonight. All. By. Myself.
May 1, 2008
My Day Off
I took yesterday off work, for no other reason than because they gave it to me...not paid of course! But still, it was great. I went back to my favorite store that morning (Salvation Army Thrift Store) and bought more stuff for the kids, and even a few nice skirts for me. Got a good bunch more clothes, and my grand total was a whopping $24.79!! Go ME! I almost got this Tommy Hilfiger skirt for $2.99, but I changed my mind. What was tempting is that it was a size 9, and it fit just fine!! BUT, the style just wasn't me.
Did you see I said it was a size 9???!!! Okay, just checking!
I laid on the couch and watched Cloverfield. That was a really cool movie, I loved the concept. And to top it off, it was a monster that destroyed Manhattan?? SCORE!!!
I did manage by the end of the day to get all my lessons done for ACP101 with Arise. All that is left now is the final exam. I think I will take that at lunch today...or at least that's the plan. I did eat a little yesterday after all. I ate a BK Croissanwich for breakfast, then ate a homemade pulled pork sandwich (on wheat) for dinner. That was plenty. I wasn't even hungry around lunchtime.
Alright, time to wake the brood and get ready for another exciting day!!
p.s. My microwave cart is still in the van. I'll get it out this evening. I will wait on man only so long, and then I will just do it my darn self! If it takes me 10 minutes to bring it 10 feet, then so be it!
Did you see I said it was a size 9???!!! Okay, just checking!
I laid on the couch and watched Cloverfield. That was a really cool movie, I loved the concept. And to top it off, it was a monster that destroyed Manhattan?? SCORE!!!
I did manage by the end of the day to get all my lessons done for ACP101 with Arise. All that is left now is the final exam. I think I will take that at lunch today...or at least that's the plan. I did eat a little yesterday after all. I ate a BK Croissanwich for breakfast, then ate a homemade pulled pork sandwich (on wheat) for dinner. That was plenty. I wasn't even hungry around lunchtime.
Alright, time to wake the brood and get ready for another exciting day!!
p.s. My microwave cart is still in the van. I'll get it out this evening. I will wait on man only so long, and then I will just do it my darn self! If it takes me 10 minutes to bring it 10 feet, then so be it!
January 2, 2008
The Best Movie I Have Seen in a While
OMG!!!
I just watched The Kingdom, starring Jamie Foxx and Jennifer Garner! My official review for this movie is: OMG!!! (in case you missed it above)
It is a very engaging movie from the very beginning. It is so relevant because, even though it is a movie, it is accurate to what is going on today. It is edge of your seat. It is a tearjerker (in a few places as a matter of fact). It is a wake-up call as to what is really going on in the world.
The acting and the action was superb. I just found the name of the director. It's Peter Berg. The man is a genius in my opinion, he produced and directed. Go here, and look at him...you'll be surprised at what you see.
I called my mom and told her about it. Please, if you haven't seen it, RUN TO THE VIDEOSTORE (or your local redbox, if you have them) and rent it!!! You will not be disappointed. If you are after watching it, something is wrong with you. You either need a heart transplant...or psychotherapy. Just my personal opinion! :)
A very close 2nd in my movie watching as of late is War, with two of my action faves, Jet Li and Jason Statham. It is an awesome movie and even up to last minutes will keep you going. Grab the popcorn and a beverage of your choosing, grab both of these movies, and enjoy your evening!
I just watched The Kingdom, starring Jamie Foxx and Jennifer Garner! My official review for this movie is: OMG!!! (in case you missed it above)
It is a very engaging movie from the very beginning. It is so relevant because, even though it is a movie, it is accurate to what is going on today. It is edge of your seat. It is a tearjerker (in a few places as a matter of fact). It is a wake-up call as to what is really going on in the world.
The acting and the action was superb. I just found the name of the director. It's Peter Berg. The man is a genius in my opinion, he produced and directed. Go here, and look at him...you'll be surprised at what you see.
I called my mom and told her about it. Please, if you haven't seen it, RUN TO THE VIDEOSTORE (or your local redbox, if you have them) and rent it!!! You will not be disappointed. If you are after watching it, something is wrong with you. You either need a heart transplant...or psychotherapy. Just my personal opinion! :)
A very close 2nd in my movie watching as of late is War, with two of my action faves, Jet Li and Jason Statham. It is an awesome movie and even up to last minutes will keep you going. Grab the popcorn and a beverage of your choosing, grab both of these movies, and enjoy your evening!
December 17, 2007
The Weekend in Review
Large, dreamy sigh!
Okay, here we go. After all the running and things on Friday, we still didn't hit the highway til about 7p. Got right outside of Arnold - on 55South - and ran into a 4-lane clogging accident! We moved about 2 miles in about an hour! From the vehicles we saw (fire trucks, state police cars, and a few ambulances) we guessed it must have been pretty serious. However, when the traffic finally opened up, we saw absolutely nothing to make us even think there had been an accident!
We got to Kween's father's house at about 1230a. Their phone was not working properly and she didn't have the cell phone number, so we - correction I - just had to knock until someone answered. Thank goodness they answered, cause Dante didn't! He obviously fell asleep, cause I called a gajillion times to no avail. It was almost becoming comical, except for the fact that it was going on 130a...and these people needed to get back to bed! So I looked on Kween's phone internet and got directions from one house to the the next. But, OMG, her stepmother Jackie got in her car and drove me all the way to the apartment complex! Just in time for Dante to call, of course! He is so sweet! Just twenty million apologies, but I knew what happened to him. It was late after all. We were the only idots driving around at that time of night! Normal people were home in bed!
So both his plan and my plan for Friday night was scratched. He wanted to take me to some club and get some drinks and dance a bit. Well, after a certain hour I knew that wasn't gonna happen, so I went back to my original idea. I brought my silver trenchcoat and a pair of black boots.
You are correct. That was ALL I was gonna wear as I greeted him at his door! Another time perhaps...
Anyway, after a good long hug and kiss (okay, several kisses), he ran me a bath and told me to go relax. It was so hot, I sweated my hair out! But it felt so good! I don't take baths at home you see. I don't really have the time. By the time I do have the time, I would never get clean, cause I would fall asleep in the tub!! So, I am basically a shower girl. Single mom, 4 kids. Seriously, what did you expect?
Back to the topic. I got out of the tub, dried off, then was instructed to lay on the bed. I got a complete rubdown with lavender baby oil gel, then a mini-massage with this three-pronged handheld thingy that came in really handy a day later! And then....
Puh-leeze, you know what happened next! You know what happened several more times that weekend! So, fast forward to the morning. Okay, fast forward a little more to when we actually got out of the bed! We got up and threw on some clothes then headed to the grocery store so I could shop for breakfast. I made some oven-baked french toast with a brown sugar glaze. I garnished with toasted slivered almonds and bananas cut on the bias, then served with some turkey bacon I pan-fried (til crisp of course, that's the secret). He absolutely loved it! Dante's not really big on fried eggs. That's something he and Starr have in common actually, she doesn't even like them with cheese anymore. But both of them can eat them boiled, just not scrambled and fried. He made tequila sunrise drinks to go with breakfast, and the spoiling began!
One thing to know about me is I find joy in serving. My children and my man, that is...not just anybody! He finished his food before me, and I asked if he wanted seconds. So, I sat my unfinished plate down and went to make him another plate. He tried to protest, but I shut him down. So from that point on, I took care of everything I could. I washed the dishes, did any cooking or serving of foods, and kept the tequila sunrises flowing until I left! He loved it, which I am glad. It would suck to live totally by myself. So I really think he enjoyed me being there to do that for him.
We went to see I Am Legend on Saturday, and went to an Italian restaurant to eat afterwards. I told him to pick someplace he has wanted to go, and so he did. I found out he is weak over lasagna. And that Talayna's in St. Louis has the best lasagna to him. The movie, by the way, was very awesome...one of Will Smith's top performances.
The rest of the weekend was spent lounging around the apartment, just watching movies and being in each other's presence. I thoroughly enjoyed myself, I fell asleep several times on the couch, which pleased him. He said it was nice to see me so relaxed, which I truly was. Me? Take a nap at home? With the kids here? You wanna talk about hypertension, let me try to take a nap during the day, and my blood pressure is going up!
Oh, and lest I forget Saturday night. Got reacquainted with my friend, Tequila Blanco! Our love-hate relationship is still intact after all these years. I drank about 5 shots in a row, not to forget I had a cocktail at dinner, and had been sipping on tequila sunrises all day. Let me be frank with you on my condition: I got drunk off my ass! Do you hear me? Completely F-cked Up! And you know what? It felt goooooood! Yep, I said it! It's not like it's anything that will be happening again in the remotely near future, but dammit I had fun! Even when the barf-fest began and I had to clean up the wall in the bathroom, and wash the rugs that were on the floor. I had fun! I passed out on the bed, and the next thing I know it was 4am...and someone was "rolling me over"!
Remember that slow leak I told you about? Yeah well, by Sunday, it was flat. Of course this was the exact moment I was ready to leave that I noticed this. We went up to Auto Zone and got Fix-A-Flat, which has NEVER worked for me by the way. Okay, now we've got to change to the spare, which I was really trying to avoid. (Note to self: find your damn hydraulic jack! What use is it if it's not in the van when you need it?) Well, by we, I mean he did most of the work! But, it was a team effort! You know I can't do the damsel-in-distress thing that well! So Kween and I made it home on cruise control at 70mph. There were a lot of other vehicles passing me, including the big rigs! That burns me up, but we made it home safely...and that's what matters. She was off today, so I was at work worn out! But I made it!
So, am I on cloud nine after this weekend? Emphatically yes!
Have I fallen head over heels in love with him, and have visions of us living happily ever after? Have you even been paying attention to my blog...or is this your first post? Okay fine, well if it is then let me break it down for you. I am nuts about this man, absolutely bonkers. He is me...so how could I not absolutely adore him? We are so much alike in so many of the same ways, and we know each other's personality types, which is a good thing.
BUT!!
See the dramatics there? I couldn't help it! We are what we are, and I refuse to let my emotions get in the midst of anything and ruin it. What are we? I don't know actually. I don't think we expected to dig each other like this upon our first meeting, so we are both just trying to enjoy it. Yet, we are both aware that this is likely not a relationship that could last in the long run. Why? He just got out of a long marriage, he needs to come into his own right now and enjoy his "singleness". He keeps telling me about wanting to finish school before he retires, and that it will take up a lot of his time. He still wants to have children and experience the whole process of diapers and all the good stuff that goes along with child-rearing from day one! Medically, I am done with that. Though that is not to say I wouldn't do it again for the right reason. (Did I tell you how AWESOME pregnancy was for me?) I still got the tools, they just need to be repaired. Sometimes I wish I wouldn't have made that decision so hastily but, such as life, I did what I thought was best at the time. Plus, it would have been nice to have the anxious and excited dad-to-be rubbing my belly at night and talking to the baby throughout the day. With four pregnancies, nope, never got that. Yeah, I know...sucks to be me.
And let's not forget my condition. I think he would be like New Guy, just not able to be completely comfortable with it for the long term. I just hate that society has put such a horrible stigma on this thing, that people fear it like it's a death sentence! It is what it is, that's all I can say. Okay, also I can say this: If you're reading this and you have ever had a cold sore, you have what I have just in a different part of your body. But essentially the same virus. Now what makes yours less worse than mine? Socially accepted thought patterns, that's what.
All that to say, as far as our relationship, I am doing everything in my mortal power to avoid the L-word like the plague. You know how quick I am to fall, and I don't wanna freak him out or anything, so I keep it under control. Honestly, I am pretty proud of me...I really am changing!
But, for the record...casual dating sucks!
Okay, here we go. After all the running and things on Friday, we still didn't hit the highway til about 7p. Got right outside of Arnold - on 55South - and ran into a 4-lane clogging accident! We moved about 2 miles in about an hour! From the vehicles we saw (fire trucks, state police cars, and a few ambulances) we guessed it must have been pretty serious. However, when the traffic finally opened up, we saw absolutely nothing to make us even think there had been an accident!
We got to Kween's father's house at about 1230a. Their phone was not working properly and she didn't have the cell phone number, so we - correction I - just had to knock until someone answered. Thank goodness they answered, cause Dante didn't! He obviously fell asleep, cause I called a gajillion times to no avail. It was almost becoming comical, except for the fact that it was going on 130a...and these people needed to get back to bed! So I looked on Kween's phone internet and got directions from one house to the the next. But, OMG, her stepmother Jackie got in her car and drove me all the way to the apartment complex! Just in time for Dante to call, of course! He is so sweet! Just twenty million apologies, but I knew what happened to him. It was late after all. We were the only idots driving around at that time of night! Normal people were home in bed!
So both his plan and my plan for Friday night was scratched. He wanted to take me to some club and get some drinks and dance a bit. Well, after a certain hour I knew that wasn't gonna happen, so I went back to my original idea. I brought my silver trenchcoat and a pair of black boots.
You are correct. That was ALL I was gonna wear as I greeted him at his door! Another time perhaps...
Anyway, after a good long hug and kiss (okay, several kisses), he ran me a bath and told me to go relax. It was so hot, I sweated my hair out! But it felt so good! I don't take baths at home you see. I don't really have the time. By the time I do have the time, I would never get clean, cause I would fall asleep in the tub!! So, I am basically a shower girl. Single mom, 4 kids. Seriously, what did you expect?
Back to the topic. I got out of the tub, dried off, then was instructed to lay on the bed. I got a complete rubdown with lavender baby oil gel, then a mini-massage with this three-pronged handheld thingy that came in really handy a day later! And then....
Puh-leeze, you know what happened next! You know what happened several more times that weekend! So, fast forward to the morning. Okay, fast forward a little more to when we actually got out of the bed! We got up and threw on some clothes then headed to the grocery store so I could shop for breakfast. I made some oven-baked french toast with a brown sugar glaze. I garnished with toasted slivered almonds and bananas cut on the bias, then served with some turkey bacon I pan-fried (til crisp of course, that's the secret). He absolutely loved it! Dante's not really big on fried eggs. That's something he and Starr have in common actually, she doesn't even like them with cheese anymore. But both of them can eat them boiled, just not scrambled and fried. He made tequila sunrise drinks to go with breakfast, and the spoiling began!
One thing to know about me is I find joy in serving. My children and my man, that is...not just anybody! He finished his food before me, and I asked if he wanted seconds. So, I sat my unfinished plate down and went to make him another plate. He tried to protest, but I shut him down. So from that point on, I took care of everything I could. I washed the dishes, did any cooking or serving of foods, and kept the tequila sunrises flowing until I left! He loved it, which I am glad. It would suck to live totally by myself. So I really think he enjoyed me being there to do that for him.
We went to see I Am Legend on Saturday, and went to an Italian restaurant to eat afterwards. I told him to pick someplace he has wanted to go, and so he did. I found out he is weak over lasagna. And that Talayna's in St. Louis has the best lasagna to him. The movie, by the way, was very awesome...one of Will Smith's top performances.
The rest of the weekend was spent lounging around the apartment, just watching movies and being in each other's presence. I thoroughly enjoyed myself, I fell asleep several times on the couch, which pleased him. He said it was nice to see me so relaxed, which I truly was. Me? Take a nap at home? With the kids here? You wanna talk about hypertension, let me try to take a nap during the day, and my blood pressure is going up!
Oh, and lest I forget Saturday night. Got reacquainted with my friend, Tequila Blanco! Our love-hate relationship is still intact after all these years. I drank about 5 shots in a row, not to forget I had a cocktail at dinner, and had been sipping on tequila sunrises all day. Let me be frank with you on my condition: I got drunk off my ass! Do you hear me? Completely F-cked Up! And you know what? It felt goooooood! Yep, I said it! It's not like it's anything that will be happening again in the remotely near future, but dammit I had fun! Even when the barf-fest began and I had to clean up the wall in the bathroom, and wash the rugs that were on the floor. I had fun! I passed out on the bed, and the next thing I know it was 4am...and someone was "rolling me over"!
Remember that slow leak I told you about? Yeah well, by Sunday, it was flat. Of course this was the exact moment I was ready to leave that I noticed this. We went up to Auto Zone and got Fix-A-Flat, which has NEVER worked for me by the way. Okay, now we've got to change to the spare, which I was really trying to avoid. (Note to self: find your damn hydraulic jack! What use is it if it's not in the van when you need it?) Well, by we, I mean he did most of the work! But, it was a team effort! You know I can't do the damsel-in-distress thing that well! So Kween and I made it home on cruise control at 70mph. There were a lot of other vehicles passing me, including the big rigs! That burns me up, but we made it home safely...and that's what matters. She was off today, so I was at work worn out! But I made it!
So, am I on cloud nine after this weekend? Emphatically yes!
Have I fallen head over heels in love with him, and have visions of us living happily ever after? Have you even been paying attention to my blog...or is this your first post? Okay fine, well if it is then let me break it down for you. I am nuts about this man, absolutely bonkers. He is me...so how could I not absolutely adore him? We are so much alike in so many of the same ways, and we know each other's personality types, which is a good thing.
BUT!!
See the dramatics there? I couldn't help it! We are what we are, and I refuse to let my emotions get in the midst of anything and ruin it. What are we? I don't know actually. I don't think we expected to dig each other like this upon our first meeting, so we are both just trying to enjoy it. Yet, we are both aware that this is likely not a relationship that could last in the long run. Why? He just got out of a long marriage, he needs to come into his own right now and enjoy his "singleness". He keeps telling me about wanting to finish school before he retires, and that it will take up a lot of his time. He still wants to have children and experience the whole process of diapers and all the good stuff that goes along with child-rearing from day one! Medically, I am done with that. Though that is not to say I wouldn't do it again for the right reason. (Did I tell you how AWESOME pregnancy was for me?) I still got the tools, they just need to be repaired. Sometimes I wish I wouldn't have made that decision so hastily but, such as life, I did what I thought was best at the time. Plus, it would have been nice to have the anxious and excited dad-to-be rubbing my belly at night and talking to the baby throughout the day. With four pregnancies, nope, never got that. Yeah, I know...sucks to be me.
And let's not forget my condition. I think he would be like New Guy, just not able to be completely comfortable with it for the long term. I just hate that society has put such a horrible stigma on this thing, that people fear it like it's a death sentence! It is what it is, that's all I can say. Okay, also I can say this: If you're reading this and you have ever had a cold sore, you have what I have just in a different part of your body. But essentially the same virus. Now what makes yours less worse than mine? Socially accepted thought patterns, that's what.
All that to say, as far as our relationship, I am doing everything in my mortal power to avoid the L-word like the plague. You know how quick I am to fall, and I don't wanna freak him out or anything, so I keep it under control. Honestly, I am pretty proud of me...I really am changing!
But, for the record...casual dating sucks!
November 23, 2007
This Week in Review
Monday: DJ had a basketball game. I switched with Kween to get off at 4p, since it was a 430p game. I hate that they ASSUME one of these kids' parents stays at home! I am the only parent, and I work full time! I worked through my lunch and left at 330p, which helped out a lot! WHAT AN AWESOME GAME!!! The kids played so well together, I was literally bursting with pride! They actuallyt won!!! They don't technically keep score, but people do anyway. And after their shutout 35-0 against O'Fallon the Friday before, they really needed this boost. And it was just an all around great game! That was one of two highlights that day.
The other was talking to the New Guy on my way to the game. I just needed to clear the air with him, and make sure he knew I wasn't still mad at him. You remember my big rant, don't you? We had a good conversation, and I'm glad for it. I wanted him to know that I understood the decision that he made and that it wasn't an easy decision for him, and that I thought he was a good guy and definitely a good man. I even told him he could be my friend and call me every now and again. (Don't know if he'll take me up on that one though)
Tuesday: Paypal's bank tried to take the $474.59 payment out of my account again. This happens AFTER I deposit a check into my landlord's bank account! My bank could in no way confirm to me that they would hold my rent check to clear when presented. That check could not bounce!! Stress level is mounting again.
Wednesday: Still worried over finances, but at least the rent check hasn't bounced...yet.
Thursday: Worked in the office by myself from 730a-4p. It was very cool as usual. I had my laptop set up and was watching movies that I rented from Redbox (which I totally love). I watched Live Free or Die Hard, which was action-packed and pretty awesome all around. It has the guy from the commercials that plays the Mac...and he did very well. Reminded me of a couple of great pairings of the action star and the comic relief from previous films. Judge Dredd (Stallone and Rob Schneider) and Rundown (Dwayne "The Rock" Johnson and Sean William Scott (from the American Pie movies)).
Went to my sister's house to eat and retrieve the children. Mom came up to my house, then I took her van to work. She drove my van since all the carseats were already in there. I ate one plate of food, then had a good helping of ambrosia. I was good for the rest of the night. I packed some cake and more ambrosia, and we headed home. After all, I still had to work Friday too!
Friday: One other person was in the office today and thank goodness it was someone I could stand all day. I still had my laptop set up though. Between calls I was able to watch 2 movies. It was a lot busier than Thanksgiving. I logged about 30 calls, and that wasn't everything! Some were quick answers to quick questions, and I didn't get a name, so I didn't log them. Mom came up again this morning and watched the kids for me.
Everything looks like it may be getting back to normal with my bank account. As soon as that happens though, I am closing my paypal and ebay accounts. If I need them again, then I can re-register at a later time. I am just tired of being constantly "behind the 8-ball". I want more, and the kids and I deserve more too! When things like this happen to people like me, it takes a long time to recover from it. But God is still on the throne, and those wrongdoers will not triumph on one of His children...in the Mighty Name of Jesus!!
The other was talking to the New Guy on my way to the game. I just needed to clear the air with him, and make sure he knew I wasn't still mad at him. You remember my big rant, don't you? We had a good conversation, and I'm glad for it. I wanted him to know that I understood the decision that he made and that it wasn't an easy decision for him, and that I thought he was a good guy and definitely a good man. I even told him he could be my friend and call me every now and again. (Don't know if he'll take me up on that one though)
Tuesday: Paypal's bank tried to take the $474.59 payment out of my account again. This happens AFTER I deposit a check into my landlord's bank account! My bank could in no way confirm to me that they would hold my rent check to clear when presented. That check could not bounce!! Stress level is mounting again.
Wednesday: Still worried over finances, but at least the rent check hasn't bounced...yet.
Thursday: Worked in the office by myself from 730a-4p. It was very cool as usual. I had my laptop set up and was watching movies that I rented from Redbox (which I totally love). I watched Live Free or Die Hard, which was action-packed and pretty awesome all around. It has the guy from the commercials that plays the Mac...and he did very well. Reminded me of a couple of great pairings of the action star and the comic relief from previous films. Judge Dredd (Stallone and Rob Schneider) and Rundown (Dwayne "The Rock" Johnson and Sean William Scott (from the American Pie movies)).
Went to my sister's house to eat and retrieve the children. Mom came up to my house, then I took her van to work. She drove my van since all the carseats were already in there. I ate one plate of food, then had a good helping of ambrosia. I was good for the rest of the night. I packed some cake and more ambrosia, and we headed home. After all, I still had to work Friday too!
Friday: One other person was in the office today and thank goodness it was someone I could stand all day. I still had my laptop set up though. Between calls I was able to watch 2 movies. It was a lot busier than Thanksgiving. I logged about 30 calls, and that wasn't everything! Some were quick answers to quick questions, and I didn't get a name, so I didn't log them. Mom came up again this morning and watched the kids for me.
Everything looks like it may be getting back to normal with my bank account. As soon as that happens though, I am closing my paypal and ebay accounts. If I need them again, then I can re-register at a later time. I am just tired of being constantly "behind the 8-ball". I want more, and the kids and I deserve more too! When things like this happen to people like me, it takes a long time to recover from it. But God is still on the throne, and those wrongdoers will not triumph on one of His children...in the Mighty Name of Jesus!!
November 10, 2007
Happy Birthday to Me!!!!
OH WHAT A NIGHT!!!!
I had a GREAT day yesterday for my birthday! I picked my bff up at the airport at 9a. We stopped at Schnuck's to get a few items since she was in the mood to cook breakfast. She had a phone interview with Monsanto while we were on our way to her friend's house (where she stays when she's here). We stayed over there a few hours. Part of the time while she was cooking, I was wasting my life away trying to get a complete moron to change my Sprint plan. After 45minutes of my life had passed, I hung up and got another agent who changed it to the way I asked and then we moved on to something else.
Can't Get Right/The One had left a voicemail while I was talking to Sprint Customer Service. No, I didn't ignore his call. Sprint somehow disables your call waiting when you call their customer service (*2) number! How nice of them! Cause you know, this 10 minutes I was on hold just to talk to you is nothing compared to the minute or two (tops) that you may have to hold while I take what could be a very important call!
Anywho - back to the story. Turns out, Mr. Man had taken the morning off and wanted to spend some time with me. But, of course, by the time I called him back he was headed in the work! Of course! No big deal, I wasn't that broken up about it. When you don't have something, it's hard to miss it right? I don't miss my GMC Yukon XL Denali....cause I don't have one! See how that works? Same with him, I can't miss spending time with someone that I never spend time with.
After we left there, I stopped up at my job and introduced my bff to a few of my coworkers. Then we headed to see Tyler Perry's (best film yet!) Why Did I Get Married? at the movie theatre. OMG!!! We laughed, we cursed, we cried, we got mad, and we got glad! That movie was awesome and I am SO GLAD I got to see it with my bestest friend! It was very good, we could both relate to it...and neither of us had been to the show in so long! She even got to meet Dante, since he stopped up there and gave me a card (and a few good kisses). She said she liked him and wanted him to come to dinner with us today. So that was cool. This little sneak even left a card at work for me! Kween sent me a text message to come to work, so I went right after the movie thinking something was wrong. She just wanted me to see the card he brought up there.
I know......awwwww, what a sweetie! He is good at what he does!
We stopped by the house for a little bit to recoup, then picked up the kids. I fed them dinner and then we went to Dominique's game. I was very excited that for the first time ever, she has been at an event of her godson's! With her living out of town, it was just never really possible before. Then we went to the Officer's house for cheesecake for my birthday. We decided on cheesecake instead of cake and ice cream due to Starr's birthday last week and Champagne's birthday the day after mine. We had a good time and she got a little bit to eat as well. I had one bite of cheesecake (not a huge fan) and fed the rest to the WonderTwins. I noticed my bff was getting tired so we were wrapping up for the evening. So Dante calls and wants to know if we wanna go to a party. I told him sure but I knew my bff wouldn't want to, since it's already past her bedtime and she'd been up since 4a to fly here.
So, with a knot in my stomach, I asked Leigh if the kids could stay over. She said she didn't mind. That was HUGE for me to do! I don't have a life as it is, because it's hard asking people to babysit FOUR children, while I go out and do whatever. But I thought, 'hey, it's my birthday dangit, and I wanna do something'! Leigh said yes and I took BFF to her friends' house in St. Louis, then dropped off the kids at Leighs. I thanked her again and headed down to meet Dante at a little hole in the wall in the city.
We didn't stay there long. He was still reeling from seeing me earlier that day. I had my hair down finally (first time he's seen it), some well-fitting jeans, and my grey contacts. It was the first time he's really seen me prettied-up in person! And he LOVED IT! So when he asked who had the kids and I told him they were at my sister's house, he perked right up. This is what he said:
"So you got the house to yourself?" [I replied that I did] "Well, let's go. I'm following you!"
It was an absolutely awesome day with the bff...and the night/morning with my Soldier Boy was phenomenal! There was some sleeping...but not a lot. We had music, candles, burning oil, and two Scorpios with enough passion to light a city! It was SO GOOD! A birthday night well spent...and noone I would have rather been with!
34 is off to an AWESOME START!
I had a GREAT day yesterday for my birthday! I picked my bff up at the airport at 9a. We stopped at Schnuck's to get a few items since she was in the mood to cook breakfast. She had a phone interview with Monsanto while we were on our way to her friend's house (where she stays when she's here). We stayed over there a few hours. Part of the time while she was cooking, I was wasting my life away trying to get a complete moron to change my Sprint plan. After 45minutes of my life had passed, I hung up and got another agent who changed it to the way I asked and then we moved on to something else.
Can't Get Right/The One had left a voicemail while I was talking to Sprint Customer Service. No, I didn't ignore his call. Sprint somehow disables your call waiting when you call their customer service (*2) number! How nice of them! Cause you know, this 10 minutes I was on hold just to talk to you is nothing compared to the minute or two (tops) that you may have to hold while I take what could be a very important call!
Anywho - back to the story. Turns out, Mr. Man had taken the morning off and wanted to spend some time with me. But, of course, by the time I called him back he was headed in the work! Of course! No big deal, I wasn't that broken up about it. When you don't have something, it's hard to miss it right? I don't miss my GMC Yukon XL Denali....cause I don't have one! See how that works? Same with him, I can't miss spending time with someone that I never spend time with.
After we left there, I stopped up at my job and introduced my bff to a few of my coworkers. Then we headed to see Tyler Perry's (best film yet!) Why Did I Get Married? at the movie theatre. OMG!!! We laughed, we cursed, we cried, we got mad, and we got glad! That movie was awesome and I am SO GLAD I got to see it with my bestest friend! It was very good, we could both relate to it...and neither of us had been to the show in so long! She even got to meet Dante, since he stopped up there and gave me a card (and a few good kisses). She said she liked him and wanted him to come to dinner with us today. So that was cool. This little sneak even left a card at work for me! Kween sent me a text message to come to work, so I went right after the movie thinking something was wrong. She just wanted me to see the card he brought up there.
I know......awwwww, what a sweetie! He is good at what he does!
We stopped by the house for a little bit to recoup, then picked up the kids. I fed them dinner and then we went to Dominique's game. I was very excited that for the first time ever, she has been at an event of her godson's! With her living out of town, it was just never really possible before. Then we went to the Officer's house for cheesecake for my birthday. We decided on cheesecake instead of cake and ice cream due to Starr's birthday last week and Champagne's birthday the day after mine. We had a good time and she got a little bit to eat as well. I had one bite of cheesecake (not a huge fan) and fed the rest to the WonderTwins. I noticed my bff was getting tired so we were wrapping up for the evening. So Dante calls and wants to know if we wanna go to a party. I told him sure but I knew my bff wouldn't want to, since it's already past her bedtime and she'd been up since 4a to fly here.
So, with a knot in my stomach, I asked Leigh if the kids could stay over. She said she didn't mind. That was HUGE for me to do! I don't have a life as it is, because it's hard asking people to babysit FOUR children, while I go out and do whatever. But I thought, 'hey, it's my birthday dangit, and I wanna do something'! Leigh said yes and I took BFF to her friends' house in St. Louis, then dropped off the kids at Leighs. I thanked her again and headed down to meet Dante at a little hole in the wall in the city.
We didn't stay there long. He was still reeling from seeing me earlier that day. I had my hair down finally (first time he's seen it), some well-fitting jeans, and my grey contacts. It was the first time he's really seen me prettied-up in person! And he LOVED IT! So when he asked who had the kids and I told him they were at my sister's house, he perked right up. This is what he said:
"So you got the house to yourself?" [I replied that I did] "Well, let's go. I'm following you!"
It was an absolutely awesome day with the bff...and the night/morning with my Soldier Boy was phenomenal! There was some sleeping...but not a lot. We had music, candles, burning oil, and two Scorpios with enough passion to light a city! It was SO GOOD! A birthday night well spent...and noone I would have rather been with!
34 is off to an AWESOME START!
July 5, 2007
Transformers Rules
Because I am a totally big KID at heart, I have been waiting on the Transformers live action movie since last year.
I was so not disappointed!!! They put together a wonderful cast and story, and I can't wait to own it! It is right up there with Armaggeddon (also directed by Michael Bay) and Independence Day for me...which now means I have a 3-way tie for my favorite movie! Yeah, I loved it that much.
Favorite song right now is Get Me Bodied by Beyonce. Enjoy the full-length video compliments of YouTube.
I was so not disappointed!!! They put together a wonderful cast and story, and I can't wait to own it! It is right up there with Armaggeddon (also directed by Michael Bay) and Independence Day for me...which now means I have a 3-way tie for my favorite movie! Yeah, I loved it that much.
Favorite song right now is Get Me Bodied by Beyonce. Enjoy the full-length video compliments of YouTube.
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