Ok, so I am somewhere between depressed about life in general, emotionally frazzled due to PMS, or just melancholy due to the phase of the moon. No, I am not super into the whole astrology thing, but I am very aware of my hypersensitivity to the full moon. I get that from my mother also (among all the other things). When she's feeling emotionally "weird" for no apparent reason, one of the first things she does is check the moon. She's usually right on about it too.
Whatever this is, it really sucks.
I really don't like feeling like I could cry at the drop of a hat...and over nothing. Yet, here I am.
And what did I do to make this jacked up state of being worse???
I watched The Lake House! If you haven't seen it, just watch it. But take my word for it, I wouldn't recommend it during PMS time!
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November 23, 2007
This Week in Review
Monday: DJ had a basketball game. I switched with Kween to get off at 4p, since it was a 430p game. I hate that they ASSUME one of these kids' parents stays at home! I am the only parent, and I work full time! I worked through my lunch and left at 330p, which helped out a lot! WHAT AN AWESOME GAME!!! The kids played so well together, I was literally bursting with pride! They actuallyt won!!! They don't technically keep score, but people do anyway. And after their shutout 35-0 against O'Fallon the Friday before, they really needed this boost. And it was just an all around great game! That was one of two highlights that day.
The other was talking to the New Guy on my way to the game. I just needed to clear the air with him, and make sure he knew I wasn't still mad at him. You remember my big rant, don't you? We had a good conversation, and I'm glad for it. I wanted him to know that I understood the decision that he made and that it wasn't an easy decision for him, and that I thought he was a good guy and definitely a good man. I even told him he could be my friend and call me every now and again. (Don't know if he'll take me up on that one though)
Tuesday: Paypal's bank tried to take the $474.59 payment out of my account again. This happens AFTER I deposit a check into my landlord's bank account! My bank could in no way confirm to me that they would hold my rent check to clear when presented. That check could not bounce!! Stress level is mounting again.
Wednesday: Still worried over finances, but at least the rent check hasn't bounced...yet.
Thursday: Worked in the office by myself from 730a-4p. It was very cool as usual. I had my laptop set up and was watching movies that I rented from Redbox (which I totally love). I watched Live Free or Die Hard, which was action-packed and pretty awesome all around. It has the guy from the commercials that plays the Mac...and he did very well. Reminded me of a couple of great pairings of the action star and the comic relief from previous films. Judge Dredd (Stallone and Rob Schneider) and Rundown (Dwayne "The Rock" Johnson and Sean William Scott (from the American Pie movies)).
Went to my sister's house to eat and retrieve the children. Mom came up to my house, then I took her van to work. She drove my van since all the carseats were already in there. I ate one plate of food, then had a good helping of ambrosia. I was good for the rest of the night. I packed some cake and more ambrosia, and we headed home. After all, I still had to work Friday too!
Friday: One other person was in the office today and thank goodness it was someone I could stand all day. I still had my laptop set up though. Between calls I was able to watch 2 movies. It was a lot busier than Thanksgiving. I logged about 30 calls, and that wasn't everything! Some were quick answers to quick questions, and I didn't get a name, so I didn't log them. Mom came up again this morning and watched the kids for me.
Everything looks like it may be getting back to normal with my bank account. As soon as that happens though, I am closing my paypal and ebay accounts. If I need them again, then I can re-register at a later time. I am just tired of being constantly "behind the 8-ball". I want more, and the kids and I deserve more too! When things like this happen to people like me, it takes a long time to recover from it. But God is still on the throne, and those wrongdoers will not triumph on one of His children...in the Mighty Name of Jesus!!
The other was talking to the New Guy on my way to the game. I just needed to clear the air with him, and make sure he knew I wasn't still mad at him. You remember my big rant, don't you? We had a good conversation, and I'm glad for it. I wanted him to know that I understood the decision that he made and that it wasn't an easy decision for him, and that I thought he was a good guy and definitely a good man. I even told him he could be my friend and call me every now and again. (Don't know if he'll take me up on that one though)
Tuesday: Paypal's bank tried to take the $474.59 payment out of my account again. This happens AFTER I deposit a check into my landlord's bank account! My bank could in no way confirm to me that they would hold my rent check to clear when presented. That check could not bounce!! Stress level is mounting again.
Wednesday: Still worried over finances, but at least the rent check hasn't bounced...yet.
Thursday: Worked in the office by myself from 730a-4p. It was very cool as usual. I had my laptop set up and was watching movies that I rented from Redbox (which I totally love). I watched Live Free or Die Hard, which was action-packed and pretty awesome all around. It has the guy from the commercials that plays the Mac...and he did very well. Reminded me of a couple of great pairings of the action star and the comic relief from previous films. Judge Dredd (Stallone and Rob Schneider) and Rundown (Dwayne "The Rock" Johnson and Sean William Scott (from the American Pie movies)).
Went to my sister's house to eat and retrieve the children. Mom came up to my house, then I took her van to work. She drove my van since all the carseats were already in there. I ate one plate of food, then had a good helping of ambrosia. I was good for the rest of the night. I packed some cake and more ambrosia, and we headed home. After all, I still had to work Friday too!
Friday: One other person was in the office today and thank goodness it was someone I could stand all day. I still had my laptop set up though. Between calls I was able to watch 2 movies. It was a lot busier than Thanksgiving. I logged about 30 calls, and that wasn't everything! Some were quick answers to quick questions, and I didn't get a name, so I didn't log them. Mom came up again this morning and watched the kids for me.
Everything looks like it may be getting back to normal with my bank account. As soon as that happens though, I am closing my paypal and ebay accounts. If I need them again, then I can re-register at a later time. I am just tired of being constantly "behind the 8-ball". I want more, and the kids and I deserve more too! When things like this happen to people like me, it takes a long time to recover from it. But God is still on the throne, and those wrongdoers will not triumph on one of His children...in the Mighty Name of Jesus!!
November 18, 2007
Birthdays Rule!!!
WOW!!!! I thought my birthday rocked! Dante went above and beyond for my birthday! I haven't had such a *ahem* pleasurable time in I don't know how long!
Well, I knew that when Dante came into town on Friday night, he was coming straight to my place. The plan was to take the kids to Kween's house where they would spend the night, and I would pick them up in the morning. So, after I had fed them and they were close to ready for bed, I took them to her house and got everyone situated. He was about 45min to an hour away. Which was still enough time to get home, straighten a little more then take care of me. Even though I am not totally in love with my figure, I also know it's not as bad as I sometimes tell myself. So knowing that, I decided to wear a "little something" for when he came in the door. Black, lace stretch chemise that just barely covered the assets!
I was so concerned about "looking right", I tried on a couple of different pieces to make sure it would be the right one! I haven't been that concerned in a while, but it was a special occasion after all! (His reaction told me I picked the right piece!)
I lit candles in the room and closed the door, then went to take my shower. I was so anxious for him to get here! It was a VERY long week without him! I drank a Smirnoff Ice very quickly to get a good buzz going on, then lay across the bed. I dozed off for a second, but then he called and told me he was on his way. There was no napping first this night!
Yes I did sleep very well with him next to me. And so did he! BUT, before we slept...
Let me just say, I didn't think it could get much better but...well... (sighs and grins)
So, the next morning as we're laying in bed listening to music and talking, Kween calls. She tells me to tell him hello and he immediately holds his hand out for the phone. So they talk and she tells him I need to be somewhere by 12noon, which he understands as I need to be at her house by noon. Fast forward to a little bit later when I am trying to "convince" him to play a little longer. He was determined he wasn't gonna have Kween mad at him if i didn't show up.
Now comes the good part.
So, he asks me where I needed to be, and I told him about the loan place so I could start borrowing money to pay my rent. (My landlord was NOT happy that I was gonna be late again) He asked how much I needed, and I told him (it was over $500 but under a grand). He preceded to call his credit union to start the process for a bank to bank transfer!! I couldn't even speak After everything was done and I was still in shock about what happened, he came over and put his arms around me. All I could say was "Thank you. This was beyond." I told him I was shaking, and he said he knew because he could feel it.
I was finally able to compose myself and we got some clothes on then went to IHOP for breakfast. Spinach and Mushroom omelet with a stack of pancakes...perfect! (I definitely worked up that appetite during the night/morning!) We talked and talked and talked. I learned even more about him...and I ate up every word. Perhaps he learned a couple more things about this fascinating creature known as SoloMommy.
What a wonderful time we had together. We left each other's company at about 2p, then I headed straight to Kween's house. I didn't leave there until almost 10p! That was the first time I have really spent time at her house, and we both really enjoyed it too! Today is my recovery day, so I am just lounging! It's back to the grind tomorrow. It's not like this will be a short week for me, since I am working both Thanksgiving and the day after!
Somebody's got to do it, right?
Well, I knew that when Dante came into town on Friday night, he was coming straight to my place. The plan was to take the kids to Kween's house where they would spend the night, and I would pick them up in the morning. So, after I had fed them and they were close to ready for bed, I took them to her house and got everyone situated. He was about 45min to an hour away. Which was still enough time to get home, straighten a little more then take care of me. Even though I am not totally in love with my figure, I also know it's not as bad as I sometimes tell myself. So knowing that, I decided to wear a "little something" for when he came in the door. Black, lace stretch chemise that just barely covered the assets!
I was so concerned about "looking right", I tried on a couple of different pieces to make sure it would be the right one! I haven't been that concerned in a while, but it was a special occasion after all! (His reaction told me I picked the right piece!)
I lit candles in the room and closed the door, then went to take my shower. I was so anxious for him to get here! It was a VERY long week without him! I drank a Smirnoff Ice very quickly to get a good buzz going on, then lay across the bed. I dozed off for a second, but then he called and told me he was on his way. There was no napping first this night!
Yes I did sleep very well with him next to me. And so did he! BUT, before we slept...
Let me just say, I didn't think it could get much better but...well... (sighs and grins)
So, the next morning as we're laying in bed listening to music and talking, Kween calls. She tells me to tell him hello and he immediately holds his hand out for the phone. So they talk and she tells him I need to be somewhere by 12noon, which he understands as I need to be at her house by noon. Fast forward to a little bit later when I am trying to "convince" him to play a little longer. He was determined he wasn't gonna have Kween mad at him if i didn't show up.
Now comes the good part.
So, he asks me where I needed to be, and I told him about the loan place so I could start borrowing money to pay my rent. (My landlord was NOT happy that I was gonna be late again) He asked how much I needed, and I told him (it was over $500 but under a grand). He preceded to call his credit union to start the process for a bank to bank transfer!! I couldn't even speak After everything was done and I was still in shock about what happened, he came over and put his arms around me. All I could say was "Thank you. This was beyond." I told him I was shaking, and he said he knew because he could feel it.
I was finally able to compose myself and we got some clothes on then went to IHOP for breakfast. Spinach and Mushroom omelet with a stack of pancakes...perfect! (I definitely worked up that appetite during the night/morning!) We talked and talked and talked. I learned even more about him...and I ate up every word. Perhaps he learned a couple more things about this fascinating creature known as SoloMommy.
What a wonderful time we had together. We left each other's company at about 2p, then I headed straight to Kween's house. I didn't leave there until almost 10p! That was the first time I have really spent time at her house, and we both really enjoyed it too! Today is my recovery day, so I am just lounging! It's back to the grind tomorrow. It's not like this will be a short week for me, since I am working both Thanksgiving and the day after!
Somebody's got to do it, right?
November 15, 2007
The Week in Review
WOW! What a week!
Work was work. Got an HR email about a midnight homeworker position...that I don't qualify for since I am still on written for attendance! Oh well...not for me at this time is the way I look at it. But, I believe there will be another position coming soon, if I am to stay at that job. It's funny listening to some of the people in there talking about how they couldn't work at home because they need the socialization. Mind youm these people either have no children or their children are grown with lives of their own. There are so many things I would love to do, if I could work overnight while my children are sleeping. I could work HSN during the afternoons when I wake up, and then in the evenings...or on my off days from CWT. I could do data entry on my laptop while working CWT, and when it was slow. AND, I would be able to pick my kids up from school. AND, I would be able to pick my nieces up, therefore saving my sisters on latchkey costs. AND, I wouldn't have to worry about missing work of one the WonderTwins had a fever and couldn't go to work the next day. AND, I could take them to any functions they needed to go to in the time between school dismissal and when I would usually pick them up.
Needlesstosay, I am really hopeful about this one. I let my manager know that I was VERY interested in a midnight homeworker position. If all continues as it is going, I should off my written attendance warning by December 15. I have a couple things from last year this time falling off by then. Once that happens, I am free to move about the company!
The most memorable thing that happened to me this week was (drumroll).......
GETTING MY EBAY ACCOUNT HACKED AND HAVING SOME ASSHOLE IN INDONESIA BUY OVER $2000 IN CELL PHONES...THEN PAY FOR AT LEAST ONE OF THEM THRU MY PAYPAL ACCOUNT!!!
Yeah.....good times, good times.
Please. Don't start the "that's why I don't shop online" sanctimonious bullcrap! Yeah, I've heard it a couple of times this week and it is quite annoying. Especially when I know that my bff wasn't shopping online but paying at a major hotel chain when her credit card info was stolen and used to buy several hundred dollars worth of groceries in Mexico!! Criminals will find a way to make things happen, whether it is online or offline!
Paypal rectified the situation very quickly, as did ebay. I contacted the sellers of all these $400-$600 cell phones and explained the situation. Most responded by filing a dispute, which gets their listing fees waived so they can relist at no additional cost. I had one seller that was being a moron saying they had already received payment. So I replied that no payment was coming or will come from my paypal account and that I am sure there will be a dispute from whoever's paypal account he hacked into, but that it was up to them if they wanted to take the chance and send the item. I notified my bank immediately, and now I just have to have them waive a NSF fee, then life is good.
What's ironic is that I haven't really been shopping on ebay because of my finances. I have had that account for about 5 years and nothing like that has ever happened. But because I let my guard down, and wasn't active or watching over it, I get burned. So, lesson learned, and I am back on top of it.
I have been talking to Dante this week. We text alot, which is uber-convenient. Some say it's impersonal and whatever, but when I am working I can't very well talk on the phone. But, I can text!!! I felt better about it, all the melancholy feelings that I had last weekend after he left. I can't wait til he gets here this weekend for his birthday. I have a few tricks up my sleeve for him! I want to make his birthday as memorable as he made mine!
He is still so sweet and thankful about what happened on Saturday. I really didn't think it was a big deal, but it really meant a lot to him that I stayed. Seriously, I just couldn't see it any other way.
I will let you know how the weekend goes.
Work was work. Got an HR email about a midnight homeworker position...that I don't qualify for since I am still on written for attendance! Oh well...not for me at this time is the way I look at it. But, I believe there will be another position coming soon, if I am to stay at that job. It's funny listening to some of the people in there talking about how they couldn't work at home because they need the socialization. Mind youm these people either have no children or their children are grown with lives of their own. There are so many things I would love to do, if I could work overnight while my children are sleeping. I could work HSN during the afternoons when I wake up, and then in the evenings...or on my off days from CWT. I could do data entry on my laptop while working CWT, and when it was slow. AND, I would be able to pick my kids up from school. AND, I would be able to pick my nieces up, therefore saving my sisters on latchkey costs. AND, I wouldn't have to worry about missing work of one the WonderTwins had a fever and couldn't go to work the next day. AND, I could take them to any functions they needed to go to in the time between school dismissal and when I would usually pick them up.
Needlesstosay, I am really hopeful about this one. I let my manager know that I was VERY interested in a midnight homeworker position. If all continues as it is going, I should off my written attendance warning by December 15. I have a couple things from last year this time falling off by then. Once that happens, I am free to move about the company!
The most memorable thing that happened to me this week was (drumroll).......
GETTING MY EBAY ACCOUNT HACKED AND HAVING SOME ASSHOLE IN INDONESIA BUY OVER $2000 IN CELL PHONES...THEN PAY FOR AT LEAST ONE OF THEM THRU MY PAYPAL ACCOUNT!!!
Yeah.....good times, good times.
Please. Don't start the "that's why I don't shop online" sanctimonious bullcrap! Yeah, I've heard it a couple of times this week and it is quite annoying. Especially when I know that my bff wasn't shopping online but paying at a major hotel chain when her credit card info was stolen and used to buy several hundred dollars worth of groceries in Mexico!! Criminals will find a way to make things happen, whether it is online or offline!
Paypal rectified the situation very quickly, as did ebay. I contacted the sellers of all these $400-$600 cell phones and explained the situation. Most responded by filing a dispute, which gets their listing fees waived so they can relist at no additional cost. I had one seller that was being a moron saying they had already received payment. So I replied that no payment was coming or will come from my paypal account and that I am sure there will be a dispute from whoever's paypal account he hacked into, but that it was up to them if they wanted to take the chance and send the item. I notified my bank immediately, and now I just have to have them waive a NSF fee, then life is good.
What's ironic is that I haven't really been shopping on ebay because of my finances. I have had that account for about 5 years and nothing like that has ever happened. But because I let my guard down, and wasn't active or watching over it, I get burned. So, lesson learned, and I am back on top of it.
I have been talking to Dante this week. We text alot, which is uber-convenient. Some say it's impersonal and whatever, but when I am working I can't very well talk on the phone. But, I can text!!! I felt better about it, all the melancholy feelings that I had last weekend after he left. I can't wait til he gets here this weekend for his birthday. I have a few tricks up my sleeve for him! I want to make his birthday as memorable as he made mine!
He is still so sweet and thankful about what happened on Saturday. I really didn't think it was a big deal, but it really meant a lot to him that I stayed. Seriously, I just couldn't see it any other way.
I will let you know how the weekend goes.
November 12, 2007
A Lazy Day
So, I am feeling really melancholy about Dante headed to Memphis.
Yes, I know it's only 5 hours away max.
Yes, he will be back this weekend for his birthday.
Yes, Kween and I are already planning a trip there before Christmas.
BUT, I don't know where we are, Dante and I.
I mean we talked before, and I told him about Can't Get Right, but then I later told him I wasn't that concerned about him anymore. We agreed that if the other person started seeing someone else, then we would be honest and say something, then just be friends.
BUT, that was before we met. Now that we have met and realized all of the chemistry we had in the virtual world transferred into reality, has things changed? I guess in a way they have, though the basic principles are still the same.
He still lives 5 hours away. I am fimly planted where I am.
He is still in the military for at least another 2 years.
He still wants to have children of his own. I am surgically altered so I can have no more.
We are so alike in so many ways, yet some of the fundamental differences is what keeps me grounded and not trip off into LoveLand (as I have been known to do *ahem* a time or two).
So I should just continue to enjoy this for awhile right? Keep things under control. Don't get too emotionally attached or involved. Let it be what it's gonna be. Nothing more.
I tell myself that daily. But, it will be easier since he will be gone on a more permanent basis. I will admit, I was very comfortable sleeping under him. Even he noticed it and teased me about it! (Don't worry, he was always gone before the kids woke up) All the time that I was involved with Cody, I was never comfortable sleeping with him. I mean like actual catchin' some Zs kinda sleeping. I was on my side, he was on his. But with Dante, I couldn't wait til he got comfortable in a spot so I could snuggle into the space between his arm and his torso! He loved it too though. It's been a while for him with that kind of intimacy. In case you didn't know, sleeping with someone can be a very intimate act. I figured that out because of how I was with Cody. So distant and guarded when it came to the actual sleeping part of the night.
So, all is well that has ended (or been put on hold) very well. Because seriously, at the end of the day, I want to see him happy. If he finds a woman in Memphis and they go on to get married and he finally gets that child he has wanted for a long time, I will be ecstatic. I care about him, I consider him a friend, so I want what he wants. That's just who I am.
We shall see that...the saga continues!
Yes, I know it's only 5 hours away max.
Yes, he will be back this weekend for his birthday.
Yes, Kween and I are already planning a trip there before Christmas.
BUT, I don't know where we are, Dante and I.
I mean we talked before, and I told him about Can't Get Right, but then I later told him I wasn't that concerned about him anymore. We agreed that if the other person started seeing someone else, then we would be honest and say something, then just be friends.
BUT, that was before we met. Now that we have met and realized all of the chemistry we had in the virtual world transferred into reality, has things changed? I guess in a way they have, though the basic principles are still the same.
He still lives 5 hours away. I am fimly planted where I am.
He is still in the military for at least another 2 years.
He still wants to have children of his own. I am surgically altered so I can have no more.
We are so alike in so many ways, yet some of the fundamental differences is what keeps me grounded and not trip off into LoveLand (as I have been known to do *ahem* a time or two).
So I should just continue to enjoy this for awhile right? Keep things under control. Don't get too emotionally attached or involved. Let it be what it's gonna be. Nothing more.
I tell myself that daily. But, it will be easier since he will be gone on a more permanent basis. I will admit, I was very comfortable sleeping under him. Even he noticed it and teased me about it! (Don't worry, he was always gone before the kids woke up) All the time that I was involved with Cody, I was never comfortable sleeping with him. I mean like actual catchin' some Zs kinda sleeping. I was on my side, he was on his. But with Dante, I couldn't wait til he got comfortable in a spot so I could snuggle into the space between his arm and his torso! He loved it too though. It's been a while for him with that kind of intimacy. In case you didn't know, sleeping with someone can be a very intimate act. I figured that out because of how I was with Cody. So distant and guarded when it came to the actual sleeping part of the night.
So, all is well that has ended (or been put on hold) very well. Because seriously, at the end of the day, I want to see him happy. If he finds a woman in Memphis and they go on to get married and he finally gets that child he has wanted for a long time, I will be ecstatic. I care about him, I consider him a friend, so I want what he wants. That's just who I am.
We shall see that...the saga continues!
November 11, 2007
The Rest of the Weekend
Saturday night turned out to be a fiasco. My bff and I weren't on the best of terms. The way things turned out, I didn't get to go to dinner. By the time I got babysitting all situated and was on my way from home, they were done eating and the chocolate souffle was to be ready in 17min. It was going to take me 40 minutes to get there. So, here I was frustrated and highly disappointed, and all dressed up with nowehere to go.
I called the Kween to vent, she told me to call Dante and see when the game was over and if he had plans afterwards. East Saint Louis Senior High was playing for the shot to go to state championships...and they won!!! Go us!!! Kween said if I didn't get a hold of him or if he already had something else planned, she was gonna put on some clothes and we were gonna go somewhere! Which was very sweet cause I was near tears and so disappointed by all that had happened, and because she is not the 'going out' type but willing to do it for me.
So I met him in the parking lot and then followed him to the Ahmes Temple (lot of older folks' hangout), where he was to meet with his old classmates and some of his family. Well we got in there and got a table, his cousin ordered us drinks. (I only had cranberry juice due to my very first -and prayerfully very last- UTI) I noticed his talking was rather slurred which concerned me, cause I didn't want him out there drunk driving. So we were talking and he laid his head on my shoulder and it started getting heavier. And heavier. And heavier. His cousin woke him up once and he talked for a few minutes, but his eyes were very heavy. The next time we got close and he laid his head against mine, he was out like a light!!! So I woke him up and told him to come outside with me, thinking the fresh air would wake him up. It didn't. We got into his truck and he started it since it was chilly out. He got comfortable and within a few seconds was out again.
That's what I wanted, which is why we went out there. I didn't want him sleep in the place. So, here I am thinking I would listen to some music and let him nap for about an hour. Then we could go back in and enjoy ourselves.
Yeah....um....not. How about 2 and a half hours later, I FINALLY got him to wake up!! The combination of alcohol and a lack of sleep from the night before was too much for him, and he literally passed out. There was nothing I could do to wake him. His phone was clipped to his pants and vibrating, and that did nothing. I was shaking him and talking to him...nothing. At one point he went to stretch and began gunning the engine, since his foot was on the gas. I had to literally lift his left off the pedal! (I told him about that later and he was very freaked out)
I know, I know. You're thinking I'm a nut for staying out there with him while he was sleeping, and you probably would have left. You know that thought crossed my mind but, being the fiercely loyal and very protective Scorpio that I am, I just couldn't do it. What if something happened? I would never have forgiven myself. EVER. I just had to watch over him and make sure he was okay, he needed me.
When he finally woke completely up, realized how much time had passed, and realized that I stayed with him the whole time, he was amazed! If he didn't thank me 50 times, he didn't thank me once. He was truly shocked, and grateful, and appreciative for what I had done. It was no big deal. So, we went to Ruby Tuesday's to eat (I hadn't eaten since JITB earlier). Can you believe, I was one of those couples that sat on the same side of the booth?? And yes we smooched most of the time too! I loved it!
So, I went to Sam's and got Champagne's cake. My bff and I talked and kind of made amends for the day before. We learned some things about what the other person was thinking. I told her I felt slighted alot of the times because she is always doing something with the couple when she's here. And then strangely she felt like I was more focused on texting and talking to Dante, which was infringing on our time together. I say strangley because honestly, he and I didn't text but a couple of times throughout the entire day (it was less than 15 messages received and sent, I counted), and we talked once when he came up to the movie theatre. But hey we both acknowledged that we were being a little bratty I guess. I also did my weekly trip to Aldi to get groceries to make dinner for the week. I can easily feed all of us for a week with a few staple products and about $25. Once again everyone, a round of applause for the amazing feats of Solo-Mommy!!!!
Dante ended up coming over when everone was there so he got to meet the whole crew. I apologized later, just in case he was freaked out by that at all, but he said he it was fine. I am sad that he is leaving in the morning. So now I have to get my feelings back in check, cause I was really starting to dig him. Back to reality! He gave the birthday girl 5 $1 bills, which was so sweet. She was happy cause she got her birthday card from Grammy. I will try to have a Wordless Wednesday and post all the pics but, no guarantees k?
So, all in all, it was an up and down weekend. I went through the gamut of emotions and had some very interesting experiences. I have to say everything turned out as it should have so, no regrets I suppose.
I still say 34 is off to a great start!!!
I called the Kween to vent, she told me to call Dante and see when the game was over and if he had plans afterwards. East Saint Louis Senior High was playing for the shot to go to state championships...and they won!!! Go us!!! Kween said if I didn't get a hold of him or if he already had something else planned, she was gonna put on some clothes and we were gonna go somewhere! Which was very sweet cause I was near tears and so disappointed by all that had happened, and because she is not the 'going out' type but willing to do it for me.
So I met him in the parking lot and then followed him to the Ahmes Temple (lot of older folks' hangout), where he was to meet with his old classmates and some of his family. Well we got in there and got a table, his cousin ordered us drinks. (I only had cranberry juice due to my very first -and prayerfully very last- UTI) I noticed his talking was rather slurred which concerned me, cause I didn't want him out there drunk driving. So we were talking and he laid his head on my shoulder and it started getting heavier. And heavier. And heavier. His cousin woke him up once and he talked for a few minutes, but his eyes were very heavy. The next time we got close and he laid his head against mine, he was out like a light!!! So I woke him up and told him to come outside with me, thinking the fresh air would wake him up. It didn't. We got into his truck and he started it since it was chilly out. He got comfortable and within a few seconds was out again.
That's what I wanted, which is why we went out there. I didn't want him sleep in the place. So, here I am thinking I would listen to some music and let him nap for about an hour. Then we could go back in and enjoy ourselves.
Yeah....um....not. How about 2 and a half hours later, I FINALLY got him to wake up!! The combination of alcohol and a lack of sleep from the night before was too much for him, and he literally passed out. There was nothing I could do to wake him. His phone was clipped to his pants and vibrating, and that did nothing. I was shaking him and talking to him...nothing. At one point he went to stretch and began gunning the engine, since his foot was on the gas. I had to literally lift his left off the pedal! (I told him about that later and he was very freaked out)
I know, I know. You're thinking I'm a nut for staying out there with him while he was sleeping, and you probably would have left. You know that thought crossed my mind but, being the fiercely loyal and very protective Scorpio that I am, I just couldn't do it. What if something happened? I would never have forgiven myself. EVER. I just had to watch over him and make sure he was okay, he needed me.
When he finally woke completely up, realized how much time had passed, and realized that I stayed with him the whole time, he was amazed! If he didn't thank me 50 times, he didn't thank me once. He was truly shocked, and grateful, and appreciative for what I had done. It was no big deal. So, we went to Ruby Tuesday's to eat (I hadn't eaten since JITB earlier). Can you believe, I was one of those couples that sat on the same side of the booth?? And yes we smooched most of the time too! I loved it!
So, I went to Sam's and got Champagne's cake. My bff and I talked and kind of made amends for the day before. We learned some things about what the other person was thinking. I told her I felt slighted alot of the times because she is always doing something with the couple when she's here. And then strangely she felt like I was more focused on texting and talking to Dante, which was infringing on our time together. I say strangley because honestly, he and I didn't text but a couple of times throughout the entire day (it was less than 15 messages received and sent, I counted), and we talked once when he came up to the movie theatre. But hey we both acknowledged that we were being a little bratty I guess. I also did my weekly trip to Aldi to get groceries to make dinner for the week. I can easily feed all of us for a week with a few staple products and about $25. Once again everyone, a round of applause for the amazing feats of Solo-Mommy!!!!
Dante ended up coming over when everone was there so he got to meet the whole crew. I apologized later, just in case he was freaked out by that at all, but he said he it was fine. I am sad that he is leaving in the morning. So now I have to get my feelings back in check, cause I was really starting to dig him. Back to reality! He gave the birthday girl 5 $1 bills, which was so sweet. She was happy cause she got her birthday card from Grammy. I will try to have a Wordless Wednesday and post all the pics but, no guarantees k?
So, all in all, it was an up and down weekend. I went through the gamut of emotions and had some very interesting experiences. I have to say everything turned out as it should have so, no regrets I suppose.
I still say 34 is off to a great start!!!
November 10, 2007
Just need to vent
Mood: Frustrated!!!
So as you know, my bff came into town this weekend for my birthday. I was just saying how it was so nice that we got to spend the whole day together yesterday. We hung out from when I picked her up from the airport that morning to about 930 that night. Usually when she comes to St. Louis to visit, she spends the entire time with the couple (her very good friends) that she stays with while here. I may get a few hours on the day she gets here or I may get a little bit of time and take her to the airport as she is leaving. Which I am a little envious sure. I'm the bff and they get the majority of the time when she is here. But I have never said anything, because at least they went to visit her in Chicago. It's been since DJ was a baby that I did that. Granted, they also had either no kids or one little baby at the time as well.
But anyway, silly me to have thought this may be like my weekend or something. As usual, something happens with one of them that changes everything. Well now we find out...the DAY OF DINNER....that he has to be at work at 6p. The place is a little ways out so with reservations at 430p (sharp), I would need to leave at about 330p. That frustrated me because then I've got to start scrambling to get things together. Dante won't be able to make it anymore cause he is at a game til 5P in ESL. I told him no worries. I haven't been able to reach the Kween so the girls can babysit. I just sprung the kids on Leigh last night for my birthday, so I don't want to do that again. Unfortunately I vented to my bff and now she is upset, whereas I am starting to feel better.
I am just being a brat, so don't mind me! Damnit!! It's MY best friend and it's MY birthday dinner!! They weren't even going to be invited until we found out it was his birthday too (same as mine)!!!
(solo-mommy breathes deeply) Relax, Relate, Release!!!
So as you know, my bff came into town this weekend for my birthday. I was just saying how it was so nice that we got to spend the whole day together yesterday. We hung out from when I picked her up from the airport that morning to about 930 that night. Usually when she comes to St. Louis to visit, she spends the entire time with the couple (her very good friends) that she stays with while here. I may get a few hours on the day she gets here or I may get a little bit of time and take her to the airport as she is leaving. Which I am a little envious sure. I'm the bff and they get the majority of the time when she is here. But I have never said anything, because at least they went to visit her in Chicago. It's been since DJ was a baby that I did that. Granted, they also had either no kids or one little baby at the time as well.
But anyway, silly me to have thought this may be like my weekend or something. As usual, something happens with one of them that changes everything. Well now we find out...the DAY OF DINNER....that he has to be at work at 6p. The place is a little ways out so with reservations at 430p (sharp), I would need to leave at about 330p. That frustrated me because then I've got to start scrambling to get things together. Dante won't be able to make it anymore cause he is at a game til 5P in ESL. I told him no worries. I haven't been able to reach the Kween so the girls can babysit. I just sprung the kids on Leigh last night for my birthday, so I don't want to do that again. Unfortunately I vented to my bff and now she is upset, whereas I am starting to feel better.
I am just being a brat, so don't mind me! Damnit!! It's MY best friend and it's MY birthday dinner!! They weren't even going to be invited until we found out it was his birthday too (same as mine)!!!
(solo-mommy breathes deeply) Relax, Relate, Release!!!
Happy Birthday to Me!!!!
OH WHAT A NIGHT!!!!
I had a GREAT day yesterday for my birthday! I picked my bff up at the airport at 9a. We stopped at Schnuck's to get a few items since she was in the mood to cook breakfast. She had a phone interview with Monsanto while we were on our way to her friend's house (where she stays when she's here). We stayed over there a few hours. Part of the time while she was cooking, I was wasting my life away trying to get a complete moron to change my Sprint plan. After 45minutes of my life had passed, I hung up and got another agent who changed it to the way I asked and then we moved on to something else.
Can't Get Right/The One had left a voicemail while I was talking to Sprint Customer Service. No, I didn't ignore his call. Sprint somehow disables your call waiting when you call their customer service (*2) number! How nice of them! Cause you know, this 10 minutes I was on hold just to talk to you is nothing compared to the minute or two (tops) that you may have to hold while I take what could be a very important call!
Anywho - back to the story. Turns out, Mr. Man had taken the morning off and wanted to spend some time with me. But, of course, by the time I called him back he was headed in the work! Of course! No big deal, I wasn't that broken up about it. When you don't have something, it's hard to miss it right? I don't miss my GMC Yukon XL Denali....cause I don't have one! See how that works? Same with him, I can't miss spending time with someone that I never spend time with.
After we left there, I stopped up at my job and introduced my bff to a few of my coworkers. Then we headed to see Tyler Perry's (best film yet!) Why Did I Get Married? at the movie theatre. OMG!!! We laughed, we cursed, we cried, we got mad, and we got glad! That movie was awesome and I am SO GLAD I got to see it with my bestest friend! It was very good, we could both relate to it...and neither of us had been to the show in so long! She even got to meet Dante, since he stopped up there and gave me a card (and a few good kisses). She said she liked him and wanted him to come to dinner with us today. So that was cool. This little sneak even left a card at work for me! Kween sent me a text message to come to work, so I went right after the movie thinking something was wrong. She just wanted me to see the card he brought up there.
I know......awwwww, what a sweetie! He is good at what he does!
We stopped by the house for a little bit to recoup, then picked up the kids. I fed them dinner and then we went to Dominique's game. I was very excited that for the first time ever, she has been at an event of her godson's! With her living out of town, it was just never really possible before. Then we went to the Officer's house for cheesecake for my birthday. We decided on cheesecake instead of cake and ice cream due to Starr's birthday last week and Champagne's birthday the day after mine. We had a good time and she got a little bit to eat as well. I had one bite of cheesecake (not a huge fan) and fed the rest to the WonderTwins. I noticed my bff was getting tired so we were wrapping up for the evening. So Dante calls and wants to know if we wanna go to a party. I told him sure but I knew my bff wouldn't want to, since it's already past her bedtime and she'd been up since 4a to fly here.
So, with a knot in my stomach, I asked Leigh if the kids could stay over. She said she didn't mind. That was HUGE for me to do! I don't have a life as it is, because it's hard asking people to babysit FOUR children, while I go out and do whatever. But I thought, 'hey, it's my birthday dangit, and I wanna do something'! Leigh said yes and I took BFF to her friends' house in St. Louis, then dropped off the kids at Leighs. I thanked her again and headed down to meet Dante at a little hole in the wall in the city.
We didn't stay there long. He was still reeling from seeing me earlier that day. I had my hair down finally (first time he's seen it), some well-fitting jeans, and my grey contacts. It was the first time he's really seen me prettied-up in person! And he LOVED IT! So when he asked who had the kids and I told him they were at my sister's house, he perked right up. This is what he said:
"So you got the house to yourself?" [I replied that I did] "Well, let's go. I'm following you!"
It was an absolutely awesome day with the bff...and the night/morning with my Soldier Boy was phenomenal! There was some sleeping...but not a lot. We had music, candles, burning oil, and two Scorpios with enough passion to light a city! It was SO GOOD! A birthday night well spent...and noone I would have rather been with!
34 is off to an AWESOME START!
I had a GREAT day yesterday for my birthday! I picked my bff up at the airport at 9a. We stopped at Schnuck's to get a few items since she was in the mood to cook breakfast. She had a phone interview with Monsanto while we were on our way to her friend's house (where she stays when she's here). We stayed over there a few hours. Part of the time while she was cooking, I was wasting my life away trying to get a complete moron to change my Sprint plan. After 45minutes of my life had passed, I hung up and got another agent who changed it to the way I asked and then we moved on to something else.
Can't Get Right/The One had left a voicemail while I was talking to Sprint Customer Service. No, I didn't ignore his call. Sprint somehow disables your call waiting when you call their customer service (*2) number! How nice of them! Cause you know, this 10 minutes I was on hold just to talk to you is nothing compared to the minute or two (tops) that you may have to hold while I take what could be a very important call!
Anywho - back to the story. Turns out, Mr. Man had taken the morning off and wanted to spend some time with me. But, of course, by the time I called him back he was headed in the work! Of course! No big deal, I wasn't that broken up about it. When you don't have something, it's hard to miss it right? I don't miss my GMC Yukon XL Denali....cause I don't have one! See how that works? Same with him, I can't miss spending time with someone that I never spend time with.
After we left there, I stopped up at my job and introduced my bff to a few of my coworkers. Then we headed to see Tyler Perry's (best film yet!) Why Did I Get Married? at the movie theatre. OMG!!! We laughed, we cursed, we cried, we got mad, and we got glad! That movie was awesome and I am SO GLAD I got to see it with my bestest friend! It was very good, we could both relate to it...and neither of us had been to the show in so long! She even got to meet Dante, since he stopped up there and gave me a card (and a few good kisses). She said she liked him and wanted him to come to dinner with us today. So that was cool. This little sneak even left a card at work for me! Kween sent me a text message to come to work, so I went right after the movie thinking something was wrong. She just wanted me to see the card he brought up there.
I know......awwwww, what a sweetie! He is good at what he does!
We stopped by the house for a little bit to recoup, then picked up the kids. I fed them dinner and then we went to Dominique's game. I was very excited that for the first time ever, she has been at an event of her godson's! With her living out of town, it was just never really possible before. Then we went to the Officer's house for cheesecake for my birthday. We decided on cheesecake instead of cake and ice cream due to Starr's birthday last week and Champagne's birthday the day after mine. We had a good time and she got a little bit to eat as well. I had one bite of cheesecake (not a huge fan) and fed the rest to the WonderTwins. I noticed my bff was getting tired so we were wrapping up for the evening. So Dante calls and wants to know if we wanna go to a party. I told him sure but I knew my bff wouldn't want to, since it's already past her bedtime and she'd been up since 4a to fly here.
So, with a knot in my stomach, I asked Leigh if the kids could stay over. She said she didn't mind. That was HUGE for me to do! I don't have a life as it is, because it's hard asking people to babysit FOUR children, while I go out and do whatever. But I thought, 'hey, it's my birthday dangit, and I wanna do something'! Leigh said yes and I took BFF to her friends' house in St. Louis, then dropped off the kids at Leighs. I thanked her again and headed down to meet Dante at a little hole in the wall in the city.
We didn't stay there long. He was still reeling from seeing me earlier that day. I had my hair down finally (first time he's seen it), some well-fitting jeans, and my grey contacts. It was the first time he's really seen me prettied-up in person! And he LOVED IT! So when he asked who had the kids and I told him they were at my sister's house, he perked right up. This is what he said:
"So you got the house to yourself?" [I replied that I did] "Well, let's go. I'm following you!"
It was an absolutely awesome day with the bff...and the night/morning with my Soldier Boy was phenomenal! There was some sleeping...but not a lot. We had music, candles, burning oil, and two Scorpios with enough passion to light a city! It was SO GOOD! A birthday night well spent...and noone I would have rather been with!
34 is off to an AWESOME START!
Champagne is 5 Today!!!
Yes, the baby girl is the big 0-5 today! Since I have plans today still for my birthday, I am going to have the family over for cake and ice cream tomorrow.
They make these little crowns at school with the child's name and their age on it, so she is wearing that around now. We didn't do anything major this morning after I picked them up. I wanted to go to Denny's, but really my pocketbook didn't support that theory. We went to Mickey D's at about 10:25a, and they had already decided to start serving lunch. So we went to Jack in the Box, because Jack says breakfast is available ALL DAY! Jack rules for that in my book (the giant blueberry french toast sticks are a helper as well). Now I am just lounging around...recovering from last night/this morning with my Soldier Boy. (more on that later)
I will probably go to Sam's tomorrow to get her cake, but no more 1/2 sheet cakes! I'm getting a round this time, I ended up throwing away cake from Starr's birthday! I am so GLAD there are no more birthdays (that require cake) until March!
They make these little crowns at school with the child's name and their age on it, so she is wearing that around now. We didn't do anything major this morning after I picked them up. I wanted to go to Denny's, but really my pocketbook didn't support that theory. We went to Mickey D's at about 10:25a, and they had already decided to start serving lunch. So we went to Jack in the Box, because Jack says breakfast is available ALL DAY! Jack rules for that in my book (the giant blueberry french toast sticks are a helper as well). Now I am just lounging around...recovering from last night/this morning with my Soldier Boy. (more on that later)
I will probably go to Sam's tomorrow to get her cake, but no more 1/2 sheet cakes! I'm getting a round this time, I ended up throwing away cake from Starr's birthday! I am so GLAD there are no more birthdays (that require cake) until March!
November 2, 2007
Starr is 9 Today!!!
Yes, she is in her last year of single digits! She was so excited for her to birthday to come. Not cause there was some big party or anything like that. But she was excited just because it was HER BIRTHDAY! That totally rocks in my book!
Yay me, that I raised completely unselfish and unmaterialistic kids (thusfar)! And a big Yay to my Momma for doing it to me!!!
She talked to her father on the phone this morning. He kept checking with me on the evening's plans and agenda all day. Did he manage to show up for her birthday?
Is George W. Bush the best president ever?
I thought that would answer the question pretty smartly (read: sarcastically).
Life is still good though. My mom gave me these Valentine's things from Krispy Kreme...and I may let them go tomorrow morning and get their own doughnut for a 2nd breakfast (we'll probably have cereal before we leave).
Really? What kid wouldn't think that was cool?
Yay me, that I raised completely unselfish and unmaterialistic kids (thusfar)! And a big Yay to my Momma for doing it to me!!!
She talked to her father on the phone this morning. He kept checking with me on the evening's plans and agenda all day. Did he manage to show up for her birthday?
Is George W. Bush the best president ever?
I thought that would answer the question pretty smartly (read: sarcastically).
Life is still good though. My mom gave me these Valentine's things from Krispy Kreme...and I may let them go tomorrow morning and get their own doughnut for a 2nd breakfast (we'll probably have cereal before we leave).
Really? What kid wouldn't think that was cool?
November 1, 2007
Halloween is FINALLY Over!
I thought it would never leave!!! Unfortunately, I have somewhere close to a metric ton of candy to contend with! I am not real big on candy and my kids. It's not cause I'm a mean mommy, but moreso to try and prevent them from taking the path I did.
They like candy, as most normal, red-blooded children do. However, they do not love candy as I did growing up. I mean real love. Like every-tooth-in-my-head-is-filled kinda love!
They did dress up though. My sister, Leigh, was able to provide costumes for all, and my brother-in-law took them trick or treating, while I chatted with Leigh and my mom and fried some chicken strips and fries.
I will post their pics later...I am tired though, so headed to bed.
They like candy, as most normal, red-blooded children do. However, they do not love candy as I did growing up. I mean real love. Like every-tooth-in-my-head-is-filled kinda love!
They did dress up though. My sister, Leigh, was able to provide costumes for all, and my brother-in-law took them trick or treating, while I chatted with Leigh and my mom and fried some chicken strips and fries.
I will post their pics later...I am tired though, so headed to bed.
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