OMG...I have never been so ready to get back to work in my life!!!
No, no, no...don't panic. I'm still not a big Corporate America or j.o.b. fan, but I'm even LESS fond of being this damn broke! So the acronym for j.o.b. (ie, Just Over Broke) will be a STEP UP for me at this time!!!
I have plans for the next few months. Those plans involved getting a few thousand dollars a month in income, getting a lease option on this house, getting my Denali XL (finally), getting almost ALL bills paid off, raising my GPA back to acceptable levels, and getting my FICO over 600. Yep...all before next Spring.
How, you ask? Well, it all starts with a job, making more than $30K a year. Mix in the part-time income working with AT&T, then sprinkle in about $700/month in child support (most from my selfish ex-husband hopefully) and we should be in a good place. Then top with supplemental income from a part-time Amway online business and some revenue from StarrDom Travel - relaunched and rebranded as a destination wedding/honeymoon/group getaway only agency - and I should be bringing in a nice chunk of change per month.
All to get me to the aforementioned goals. I was originally hoping to have my Denali by my birthday this year but, unless I do something wreckless and stupid...or win the lottery...I won't. That's okay, I'm aiming for next year, around tax return season to be specific. My bills should be in such a good place by then that I could afford to split my return between that and a good down payment on a certain surgery I've been wanting to have.
That's the general plan, now it's time to narrow it down some to more specific goals. It's gonna happen, I no longer have a doubt. God promised it to me, and He does not break his promises.
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August 14, 2010
August 6, 2010
Guess Who?
Let's just pretend the last 2+ months didn't happen, shall we?
Here's the Cliff Note version:
Still with Dante. Situation is the same. I screwed up my grades and schoolwork after the helluva year I had, so now I'm on academic and financial aid probation. My ex-husband flaked on our lump-sum child support deal. Unemployment ran out. My mother had to cover my rent for July out of her disability check. I've started a new work assignment doing online chat with AT&T, and have had my cable internet turned off 3 times now during. My admin business website no longer exists, after several years. My travel biz is currently defunct...especially since I can't keep my cell phone on which is the business number. I have no money.
Yep, that pretty much sums that up. On to new things then.
Tired of living this way. I know I have said it so many times before. SO. MANY. But I have to get this preprogrammed thought of lack and struggle out of my self-conscious. I even listen to a motivational mantra on my iPod while sleeping sometimes. Ok, not sometimes. Basically every night I sleep alone. I want to change. I need to change. I believe I can change. I will change.
Most importantly, I will learn to shut the hell up! I can't tell everyone about the things I dream and believe are for me from my Heavenly Father. Honestly, I can't tell most to be frank. My family thinks they are being encouraging, but they come from the same FEAR-laced cloth that I do. When they talk to me about "reality", they actually think they're being helpful rather than the detriment they actually are. Sometimes to the point of "dreamkillers", and who needs that?? I can talk to the BFF about these things, but that's about it. Dante will listen, but even that only goes so far. It's a strange relationship, but he definitely has my back when I need him, and vice versa. It would all be so much simpler if he just allowed that to be enough, but he is a man and 'simple' only describes their mindset, NOT the way they make their situations!
Anywho, I'm on a desperate and determined, focused and fantastic path to get to the life and to the financial level I want to be at. It is not down here where I am now. That will be the focus of most of my blogs henceforth. Me, the Delightful Children, my financial health, this house, my business and/or employment ventures and of course my faith...and for the most part, that's it. I'm all about the positive and progressive directions right now.
Just wanted to put that on the record.
Here's the Cliff Note version:
Still with Dante. Situation is the same. I screwed up my grades and schoolwork after the helluva year I had, so now I'm on academic and financial aid probation. My ex-husband flaked on our lump-sum child support deal. Unemployment ran out. My mother had to cover my rent for July out of her disability check. I've started a new work assignment doing online chat with AT&T, and have had my cable internet turned off 3 times now during. My admin business website no longer exists, after several years. My travel biz is currently defunct...especially since I can't keep my cell phone on which is the business number. I have no money.
Yep, that pretty much sums that up. On to new things then.
Tired of living this way. I know I have said it so many times before. SO. MANY. But I have to get this preprogrammed thought of lack and struggle out of my self-conscious. I even listen to a motivational mantra on my iPod while sleeping sometimes. Ok, not sometimes. Basically every night I sleep alone. I want to change. I need to change. I believe I can change. I will change.
Most importantly, I will learn to shut the hell up! I can't tell everyone about the things I dream and believe are for me from my Heavenly Father. Honestly, I can't tell most to be frank. My family thinks they are being encouraging, but they come from the same FEAR-laced cloth that I do. When they talk to me about "reality", they actually think they're being helpful rather than the detriment they actually are. Sometimes to the point of "dreamkillers", and who needs that?? I can talk to the BFF about these things, but that's about it. Dante will listen, but even that only goes so far. It's a strange relationship, but he definitely has my back when I need him, and vice versa. It would all be so much simpler if he just allowed that to be enough, but he is a man and 'simple' only describes their mindset, NOT the way they make their situations!
Anywho, I'm on a desperate and determined, focused and fantastic path to get to the life and to the financial level I want to be at. It is not down here where I am now. That will be the focus of most of my blogs henceforth. Me, the Delightful Children, my financial health, this house, my business and/or employment ventures and of course my faith...and for the most part, that's it. I'm all about the positive and progressive directions right now.
Just wanted to put that on the record.
November 29, 2009
November 2, 2009
Happy Birthday Starr!!
She's 11 today. (Yes, that is Transformers. Yes, she picked it all by herself!)
I can remember the day she was born like it was yesterday. It started out a beautiful San Diego day as usual. I was relieved the weekend was over, and she wasn't born on Halloween! I was supposed to go in to work that day and fill in for someone else who was out. But I called my supervisor and told him I just couldn't do it, that I was so tired and I promised I would be in the next day. He later told me how HAPPY he was that I didn't come in that day after all!!
It would be another hour before I noticed the somewhat regular tightening of my abdomen.
My friend and next door neighbor called and I was surprised she was home that day. She said she had to take her cousin to court so she took the day off work. We were just talking as usual and chit-chatting. Meanwhile, I was packing my bag for the hospital and DJ's bag for the babysitter, unbeknownst to my neighbor! Finally after about an hour, I asked what time she had to go to court and she said it was that afternoon. I politely asked her if she would drive me to the hospital because I was in labor. She started panicking more than I was! "Why didn't you say anything? How long have you been having contractions? Are you ready to go now?"
I replied 'no' to the last question because I still had to call my babysitter Lisa to pick up DJ. I didn't have to ask her if he could stay with them while I was in the hospital, she told me he was!!
She didn't live far, so they were there pretty quickly, and my friend and I were off to the hospital.
I don't really remember much about the drive there. Just enjoying the sights of San Diego, as I always did. I went to a hospital called Mary Birch Hospital for Women, so they had their own triage 'ER'-type area for Labor and Delivery. I was in my little room patiently waiting, my friend left to get her cousin to court on time, promising me she would be back ASAP. I remember a nurse coming in to check my vitals and enter my info in the system, but another nurse came a little later to do it again since she wasn't seeing info in the computer next to me. They already had me hooked up to a monitor machine that kept track of my contractions as well as the baby's heartbeat. I knew it was a girl, due to a previous ultrasound, and I already knew what her name was. I gave her father a chance to help with the naming by agreeing to the middle name Monique, but since he wasn't really around like I felt he should have been, I went with Starr instead. No, I'm no hippie I swear. But my mom's nickname in her younger days was Starr, and I knew without her (though 2200 miles away), I couldn't have made it through that preganancy sane. So Starr it was!
Back to the story: When the 2nd nurse came in and noticed my info wasn't in the computer thing, she decided she would go ahead and "check me" just to see how far I was progressing. What they are "checking" is how far I (my cervix, to be exact) am dilated ( up to 10cm) and effaced (thinned out, percentage up to 100%). Fully dilated and effaced basically means the baby is coming any second and some pushing is gonna be happening in moments. For most women, without using drugs that is, this process is usually rather uncomfortable to downright painful. I can still say to this day that after 4 children, it never was for me. So, imagine the nurse's utter amazement when she discovers I am fully dilated and effaced and sitting there as calm as if were having tea with the Queen! I even hear her at the nurse's station telling the other nurses that I am calm and relaxed and even laughing with her, though I am fully dilated and effaced! A few nurses peeked in my room! Now that was hilarious! She even asked at one point if I could not laugh so loudly because she didn't want to make the other women feel bad!! LOL
They got me up to labor and delivery pretty quick, needlesstosay. The doctor had two C-sections to do before me, then he was on his way in. In the time it took him to do the first delivery, it was all I could do to keep Starr in! Ladies with children, you know what I mean about that urge to push! Men, think of a time when you really, really had to do #2 but had to hold it until you got where you were going. Got that feeling in your mind? Good, now take that and multiply it by 20!!
The nurse paged him a few times, because by now I was really uncomfortable because I was trying to resist the urge to push. She put this oxygen mask on me, which made things worse because I felt like I couldn't breathe then! Goofy, I know. Finally she begged me to just wait a second longer, and she found him then literally pulled him into the room and said, "Trust me, this won't take but a minute or two!" He said push twice and there she was!! Then the doc was gone. Starr was rather cranky and not easily consolable initially, even for a newborn. So the nurse gave her a bottle of formula, and she drank two ounces right from the womb!! The nurse swore she had never seen anything like that before!
The only thing I really remember about the hospital stay afterward was hoping Wayne would walk through the door. No luck, Army duty called. I also know I am not one of those mothers that want their baby to sleep in the room with them. Are you kidding?? I know for sure the next few months it's just gonna be me and the babies, so at least for these two nights I'll take advantage of someone else watching the baby while I sleep!
The day I came home from the hospital, I ended up at the airport that evening because my mom was on a plane out there! She stayed for two weeks. She had never been that far west and had NEVER seen the ocean in her almost 50 years then. What an awesome thing to have been a part of. She even made sure DJ was walking by the time she flew back home!
So that's the story of Starr's birth, and I do not regret a moment of it...or anyday we have spent being a part of each other's lives. I see so much of myself in her, and then some. I just want her to know there is NOTHING she cannot do, that the sky really is the limit. So much more in store for her, and I can't hardly wait to be a part of it!
Thank You Lord for the blessing you gave me 11 years ago today.
November 1, 2009
What an Awesome Time I Had!!!
The party Friday night was great! I got to see a lot of people from the old high school days. I was with a group of girls that I knew, Kween was one of them. It was great! You know what? I decided I would not be a wall flower this time, that I was gonna have me some fun. I was NOT gonna just sit at the table and chit chat! Hell, I can do that on the phone!! lol I also decided that I wasn't gonna buy my own drinks either.
I kept my word on both accounts! My old friend Jerome was there, and he took care of me. Got me pretty tipsy off of Amaretto Sours to be quite frank about it! I must admit I started it though. The last time we were in the same social space, he was celebrating his and his girlfriend-at-the-time's birthdays. So I went up to him while he was ordering some chicken wings for Kween and asked him who was his current toy before I started messing with him, because I didn't want to get my car keyed up! We both laughed at that, and he said I was! Funny. Especially since he had it backwards: I wasn't his toy, he was mine!
We danced a few times to both fast and slow songs, and I also danced with his other friend Marvin. Marvin was determined to get me to go to breakfast with him! Yeah....no!! He's a cool as a fan and all, but not my type AT ALL. Plus, he's like best friends and frat with Jerome - that just ain't cool! I did the brothers thing in my youth, that was close enough! lol
As the night progressed on, we kept wandering back toward each other, Jerome and I. We do this every time we see each other. We've always had this love-hate relationship, all the way back to when we 'dated' in junior high school. He was arrogant as hell back then and nothing has changed to this day. I was conceited as hell back then and nothing has changed to this day. Neither one of us could break the other down, we were used to the opposite sex chasing after us. Neither one of us behaved that way, so it was a very unusual pairing. Anyway, back to the present, by the last hour or so, we were almost inseparable. I mean like not with a hot butter knife inseparable. Put it this way: we were told more than once to 'get a room' by one of his boys and by Kween, and I'm sure most in attendance would think we were a couple. Mind you, there was no lip-locking going on at all. But, I was definitely working that Scorpio Magic on him!
Me and the ladies still left at the same time, and Jerome and Marvin walked us out to our cars. Of course I was last to leave, though he would have much preferred me to go home with him! He kept asking, or more like telling me I was. I was good and tipsy too?? In case you don't know, let me give the equation:
Scorpio plus Alcohol = SEX
Most of me was ready to make that roll with him, but my conscience still wouldn't let me do it. I know, I know. He does have another girlfriend in Memphis, and she isn't the first. But two wrongs don't make a right either. I wouldn't do it to get back at him, that's immature. Problem is, he's so much on my mind that I couldn't do it! (granted: I could if I wanted to, I'm sure I'd get over the guilt and regret) Plus, since we are being honest with each other, I would have felt obligated to tell him...and I didn't want to do that! So I walked away. I even sent Dante a text while I was driving home! Aren't I the good girl??
On Halloween, I took the kids to church for the big fall festival. It was really great, there was a huge turnout. Leigh and all my neices came, plus my brother-in-law. They enjoyed themselves also. I worked as a volunteer at one of the games all night. My legs are killing me today because I was basically doing squats for two hours straight! I was also self-conscious because as I was bending down to pick up the little sacks that the kids tossed for candy, I realized that my red string lace thong was showing out of my low rise jeans!!! At church!
Dante went to a party with his friend April (remember the hike?) that night. I told him to send me a pic before he left cause he was dressed as the Undertaker from WWE. Well, I finally got it the next day. You know I didn't get a 'goodnight punkin' text that night either. Oh well. I know who he was with and I'm glad he had fun. He won the contest too!
Off to bed I go. Still got a lot on my mind. Some things I haven't written about yet, time will tell if it's necessary, and some things need to be written/planned on paper instead. Parent Teacher conferences tomorrow. Hopefully glowing reviews all around is what I'm going for!!
I kept my word on both accounts! My old friend Jerome was there, and he took care of me. Got me pretty tipsy off of Amaretto Sours to be quite frank about it! I must admit I started it though. The last time we were in the same social space, he was celebrating his and his girlfriend-at-the-time's birthdays. So I went up to him while he was ordering some chicken wings for Kween and asked him who was his current toy before I started messing with him, because I didn't want to get my car keyed up! We both laughed at that, and he said I was! Funny. Especially since he had it backwards: I wasn't his toy, he was mine!
We danced a few times to both fast and slow songs, and I also danced with his other friend Marvin. Marvin was determined to get me to go to breakfast with him! Yeah....no!! He's a cool as a fan and all, but not my type AT ALL. Plus, he's like best friends and frat with Jerome - that just ain't cool! I did the brothers thing in my youth, that was close enough! lol
As the night progressed on, we kept wandering back toward each other, Jerome and I. We do this every time we see each other. We've always had this love-hate relationship, all the way back to when we 'dated' in junior high school. He was arrogant as hell back then and nothing has changed to this day. I was conceited as hell back then and nothing has changed to this day. Neither one of us could break the other down, we were used to the opposite sex chasing after us. Neither one of us behaved that way, so it was a very unusual pairing. Anyway, back to the present, by the last hour or so, we were almost inseparable. I mean like not with a hot butter knife inseparable. Put it this way: we were told more than once to 'get a room' by one of his boys and by Kween, and I'm sure most in attendance would think we were a couple. Mind you, there was no lip-locking going on at all. But, I was definitely working that Scorpio Magic on him!
Me and the ladies still left at the same time, and Jerome and Marvin walked us out to our cars. Of course I was last to leave, though he would have much preferred me to go home with him! He kept asking, or more like telling me I was. I was good and tipsy too?? In case you don't know, let me give the equation:
Scorpio plus Alcohol = SEX
Most of me was ready to make that roll with him, but my conscience still wouldn't let me do it. I know, I know. He does have another girlfriend in Memphis, and she isn't the first. But two wrongs don't make a right either. I wouldn't do it to get back at him, that's immature. Problem is, he's so much on my mind that I couldn't do it! (granted: I could if I wanted to, I'm sure I'd get over the guilt and regret) Plus, since we are being honest with each other, I would have felt obligated to tell him...and I didn't want to do that! So I walked away. I even sent Dante a text while I was driving home! Aren't I the good girl??
On Halloween, I took the kids to church for the big fall festival. It was really great, there was a huge turnout. Leigh and all my neices came, plus my brother-in-law. They enjoyed themselves also. I worked as a volunteer at one of the games all night. My legs are killing me today because I was basically doing squats for two hours straight! I was also self-conscious because as I was bending down to pick up the little sacks that the kids tossed for candy, I realized that my red string lace thong was showing out of my low rise jeans!!! At church!
Dante went to a party with his friend April (remember the hike?) that night. I told him to send me a pic before he left cause he was dressed as the Undertaker from WWE. Well, I finally got it the next day. You know I didn't get a 'goodnight punkin' text that night either. Oh well. I know who he was with and I'm glad he had fun. He won the contest too!
Off to bed I go. Still got a lot on my mind. Some things I haven't written about yet, time will tell if it's necessary, and some things need to be written/planned on paper instead. Parent Teacher conferences tomorrow. Hopefully glowing reviews all around is what I'm going for!!
October 30, 2009
Better Than To Tell A Lie
Dante and I had a great talk to really clear the air from what happened in my last post. Part of it was that I was having a bad day and he knew I was having a bad day. So a part of my mind was like "see how much he cares about you"! But we cleared up alot. I asked the tough questions and got the honest answers. He knows exactly how I feel about the situation, but that I'm willing to deal with it for a minute longer until he decides where he wants to live. I tried to explain it to the BFF but I don't know how well I did. I know she doesn't like it and thinks that he should just be faithful (so do I), but sometimes life just isn't that simple. Hell, most times it's not.
I'm feeling better than I was about myself yesterday too, I just know I have to really get it together. I'm tired of letting myself down. Noone can do that for me, but me.
I'm VERY excited, because I am going to a party tonight. Yes, me, to a Halloween party! What am I going to be?
Miss America, of course! It totally fits me, that's what everyone else has said! Hey, all I did was wear one of my previously unworn evening gowns, make a sash with Miss America on it, and wear one of the two tiaras I already have! Simple and cheap, that works for me!
I hope I have as good of a time as I am hoping to. Lord knows I need it!!!
I'm feeling better than I was about myself yesterday too, I just know I have to really get it together. I'm tired of letting myself down. Noone can do that for me, but me.
I'm VERY excited, because I am going to a party tonight. Yes, me, to a Halloween party! What am I going to be?
Miss America, of course! It totally fits me, that's what everyone else has said! Hey, all I did was wear one of my previously unworn evening gowns, make a sash with Miss America on it, and wear one of the two tiaras I already have! Simple and cheap, that works for me!
I hope I have as good of a time as I am hoping to. Lord knows I need it!!!
August 10, 2009
School Shopping Blows...and other news
For the last two days, I have been clothes shopping for the delightful children. Total, minus shoes? $300!! Ouch!! Payless BOGO starts Tuesday, so that will be even more money. But I am definitely going to try and recoup some from Wayne at least. I finally got my tire fixed yesterday also, at the cost of choir day and choir rehearsal. I am so bummed about that. Not to mention another $200 for 2 tires (yep, just 2) and an oil change.
OUCH!!
Sad thing is I still have to get shoes AND all the other BS school supplies like wipes and hand sanitizer, and reams of copy paper! WTF??
What did I buy for me, you ask? A fifty cent Reese's at Wal-Mart on the last day! Not a STITCH of clothing, not even a spool of thread. So what? That's motherhood for you! My hair is shedding due to poor maintainence, my artificial nails are falling off because I am so past due for a fill-in. But the kids will look great when it's time to head back to school!!
Whatever. I'll get to me soon enough.
OUCH!!
Sad thing is I still have to get shoes AND all the other BS school supplies like wipes and hand sanitizer, and reams of copy paper! WTF??
What did I buy for me, you ask? A fifty cent Reese's at Wal-Mart on the last day! Not a STITCH of clothing, not even a spool of thread. So what? That's motherhood for you! My hair is shedding due to poor maintainence, my artificial nails are falling off because I am so past due for a fill-in. But the kids will look great when it's time to head back to school!!
Whatever. I'll get to me soon enough.
July 2, 2009
Anxiety
Please bear with me today. I have a mountain of anxiety building up and I feel like this volcano is about to blow its top off soon.
Why so much anxiety? Well, I am supposed to be going on a trip with the kids and my sisters to Holiday World in a few days. As of today, I have the money. However, that money also needs to cover getting my car repaired (otherwise it's not 4-hr highway driveworthy), plus hotel, plus admission, PLUS gas, PLUS food. That would also leave me mostly broke for the rest of the week. But the thought of letting the kids down like that is just too much. There's also the fact that this is the first of the month, and I really need to start holding this money aside for either rent to my new bank landlord, or as a deposit for a new place. Speaking of new places, there's another piece of anxiety. I want to move into a house, and I want it to be here in the same school district, because I don't want my kids to have to change schools again. There is the anxiety of having to apply again for a home, knowing I will face the obstacle of non-traditional income. But I promise you this, I will make a way when that time comes...whether I am completely truthful or not. I have nowhere else to go.
There's the anxiety that my unemployemtn will run out sooner than later, and I must be able to replace that income. I do plan to remain a full time student, and I know I can live off that money but just barely. I do not plan to get rid of Sears so that could very well be an additional $700 or so a month, yet still not nearly enough. I know it's time to crap or get off the toilet. It's press time, it's time to relentlessly pursue clients and income. It doesn't help that everytime I have a serious conversation with the man I've been with for the past year and a half plus (and that I assume will lead to a longer-term commitment), I am reminded of my financial inadequacy. No, no, he doesn't say it directly. Well, except that one time he was mad. But, it's the constant reminder of him not wanting to "go backwards"...because his ex-wife didn't work for a large part of their marriage. What's annoying is that when we talked about how he felt about a housewife a few times previously, he said he had not problem with it. But it seems as things get more serious between us, he didn't really mean what he said. Now to get this straight, I am not expecting a white knight to come and rescue me and my children and completely take care of us (though I may not complain if it happens:) ). But the way I feel is this, there is no reason for a woman with no children to not be going to work everyday unless she is physically or mentally unable to. That statement may be a blow to women's lib or WHATEVER, but that's how I feel. Especially since now, I have to bear the ill-feelings of it.
Then there's the anxiety of him coming home, and what that will do to our relationship. Certain things I allowed because of the distance will no longer be okay with me. I'm not a casual dater, so I am hoping he realizes that there is a "goal" in mind for this relationship. Will we survive that? Some don't, that's just reality. I worry that he'll be so deadset against what he doesn't want based on his relationship with the ex that our relationship will become collateral damage.
Soon I will have some good news. I promise.
Why so much anxiety? Well, I am supposed to be going on a trip with the kids and my sisters to Holiday World in a few days. As of today, I have the money. However, that money also needs to cover getting my car repaired (otherwise it's not 4-hr highway driveworthy), plus hotel, plus admission, PLUS gas, PLUS food. That would also leave me mostly broke for the rest of the week. But the thought of letting the kids down like that is just too much. There's also the fact that this is the first of the month, and I really need to start holding this money aside for either rent to my new bank landlord, or as a deposit for a new place. Speaking of new places, there's another piece of anxiety. I want to move into a house, and I want it to be here in the same school district, because I don't want my kids to have to change schools again. There is the anxiety of having to apply again for a home, knowing I will face the obstacle of non-traditional income. But I promise you this, I will make a way when that time comes...whether I am completely truthful or not. I have nowhere else to go.
There's the anxiety that my unemployemtn will run out sooner than later, and I must be able to replace that income. I do plan to remain a full time student, and I know I can live off that money but just barely. I do not plan to get rid of Sears so that could very well be an additional $700 or so a month, yet still not nearly enough. I know it's time to crap or get off the toilet. It's press time, it's time to relentlessly pursue clients and income. It doesn't help that everytime I have a serious conversation with the man I've been with for the past year and a half plus (and that I assume will lead to a longer-term commitment), I am reminded of my financial inadequacy. No, no, he doesn't say it directly. Well, except that one time he was mad. But, it's the constant reminder of him not wanting to "go backwards"...because his ex-wife didn't work for a large part of their marriage. What's annoying is that when we talked about how he felt about a housewife a few times previously, he said he had not problem with it. But it seems as things get more serious between us, he didn't really mean what he said. Now to get this straight, I am not expecting a white knight to come and rescue me and my children and completely take care of us (though I may not complain if it happens:) ). But the way I feel is this, there is no reason for a woman with no children to not be going to work everyday unless she is physically or mentally unable to. That statement may be a blow to women's lib or WHATEVER, but that's how I feel. Especially since now, I have to bear the ill-feelings of it.
Then there's the anxiety of him coming home, and what that will do to our relationship. Certain things I allowed because of the distance will no longer be okay with me. I'm not a casual dater, so I am hoping he realizes that there is a "goal" in mind for this relationship. Will we survive that? Some don't, that's just reality. I worry that he'll be so deadset against what he doesn't want based on his relationship with the ex that our relationship will become collateral damage.
Soon I will have some good news. I promise.
June 21, 2009
Gotta Get Back To Normal
Freaking out today. Because I haven't heard from Dante since yesterday afternoon. I missed his call last night at about 720p while I was outside at grandmother's house. I called back when I saw it at 8p but no answer home or cell. Sent a goodnight text message at 11p. Nada. He sent a good morning text at about 7a to say he had passed out last night, he just woke up but was still sleepy so he would "ttyl". Just because of the mood I'm in and the things I'm feeling I responded simply, "K".
I've called more than once to both phones and I've sent a text since then...and it's now 3P in the afternoon!
Of course I'm thinking he's with another woman!!! With all that I've told you....you would think it too! Could it be the 'hater' Shontell (real name cuz I don't care jack about her!)? Or perhaps it's the newest (or not as new as I think) player with the 'good morning baby' text I saw last week?
The world may never know....
I've got to get my head together! I can't live like this for the next 2 months!
I've called more than once to both phones and I've sent a text since then...and it's now 3P in the afternoon!
Of course I'm thinking he's with another woman!!! With all that I've told you....you would think it too! Could it be the 'hater' Shontell (real name cuz I don't care jack about her!)? Or perhaps it's the newest (or not as new as I think) player with the 'good morning baby' text I saw last week?
The world may never know....
I've got to get my head together! I can't live like this for the next 2 months!
June 20, 2009
Trying to Be Better
I have so much going on in my head right now. I'm a little better than I was the other day, but not much. Unfortunately, we had a conversation about 'most men' thinking a woman with four kids is "damaged goods". Of course he assured me that he doesn't think that way, but most of the men he's talked to wouldn't even give a woman with 4 kids the time of day. I assured him that I have no problem getting the time of day in the past or the present! Honestly, my hang up was more to do with the stigma I put on my own self, not anything someone else has said. I have never been rejected due to the amount of children I have.
I know that his intention was not to date a woman with children, as my intention was not to date a man that didn't have any. But, I feel like we are so good for each other that apparently we would've BOTH missed out had we held onto that belief!
In other news, I am torn on the workfront. There are now other opps coming up that I can possibly train for (if selected), but I don't know if I want to tie up so much of my time that way. If I have two opps, plus school, plus household, plus church responsibilities...then when would I have time for my business??? I have an opportunity to make more money with my business most definitely, so I know I should concentrate on that. So I'm trying to focus on that, and breaking down this fear factor I still have.
Plus, let's not forget that the possible sale date for this place is coming in less than two weeks. So that's a big peice of anxiety for me right now. I mean thankfully, because of the bill the prez passed, I wouldn't be forced to leave (if at all) until October at the earliest. That gives me some relief.
I'm just in a place of anxiety and discomfort right now, and I have to change what I can and accept what I can't. Right?
I know that his intention was not to date a woman with children, as my intention was not to date a man that didn't have any. But, I feel like we are so good for each other that apparently we would've BOTH missed out had we held onto that belief!
In other news, I am torn on the workfront. There are now other opps coming up that I can possibly train for (if selected), but I don't know if I want to tie up so much of my time that way. If I have two opps, plus school, plus household, plus church responsibilities...then when would I have time for my business??? I have an opportunity to make more money with my business most definitely, so I know I should concentrate on that. So I'm trying to focus on that, and breaking down this fear factor I still have.
Plus, let's not forget that the possible sale date for this place is coming in less than two weeks. So that's a big peice of anxiety for me right now. I mean thankfully, because of the bill the prez passed, I wouldn't be forced to leave (if at all) until October at the earliest. That gives me some relief.
I'm just in a place of anxiety and discomfort right now, and I have to change what I can and accept what I can't. Right?
Trust in the LORD with all your heart
and lean not on your own understanding;
in all your ways acknowledge him,
and he will direct your paths.
Proverbs 3, 5-6
AMEN
June 8, 2009
Great and Informative Article
Oh, and the landlords never changed certain items addresses from my unit in the duplex (their former residence), that's how I get access to these things. Otherwise, I would have been dangerously in the dark until I got a notice to vacate on my darn door!
May 24, 2009
Some Facts of (My) Life
As I stated previously, I am re-reading Secrets of the Millionaire Mind again. Found a few great things so far. But here's the one that slapped me in the head (think NCIS):
"Wealth File #2: Rich people play the money game to win. Poor people play the money game not to lose."
If you really think about it, that's a pretty profound statement. I will tell you how it applies to me in virtually all areas. When I was younger, I was never super-competitive when it came to sports. The "objective" of the game was never to win for me, it was merely not to lose. Examples: In skating (roller or ice) the goal was to not fall; in bowling I never aimed for a strike or a 300-score, I just tried to avoid a "gutter ball"; baseball/softball was never about hitting a homer, it was about NOT striking out! Get the idea? Now if I was that way in sports, do we really think I have been any different in everything else in my life?? EXACTAMUNDO!!!
That is...until now! More to come...
If you really think about it, that's a pretty profound statement. I will tell you how it applies to me in virtually all areas. When I was younger, I was never super-competitive when it came to sports. The "objective" of the game was never to win for me, it was merely not to lose. Examples: In skating (roller or ice) the goal was to not fall; in bowling I never aimed for a strike or a 300-score, I just tried to avoid a "gutter ball"; baseball/softball was never about hitting a homer, it was about NOT striking out! Get the idea? Now if I was that way in sports, do we really think I have been any different in everything else in my life?? EXACTAMUNDO!!!
That is...until now! More to come...
May 18, 2009
What A Day...
Well it was very nice outside today. I started my training class and all is well there.
So that was the good news.
Because of an outstanding balance that I let go to collections before I paid it at Park University, they're telling me I have to pay my entire summer tuition up front by next Monday, or my classes will be dropped. That is correct. All $1800 of it!! Need I mention I already have a full financial aid package completed, where they will owe me a refund! The lady gave me the name and email of someone who could possibly waive that for me. So I sent them an email letter today, along with a copy of the paid receipt, and my unemployment check stub. I have asked God for this and thanked Him for granting it. There is nothing more I can do. I literally told the lady in the email that by denying this waiver request, it would completely derail this single mother's plans to go to school in the near future.
Then, to top it all off, my bank account is back in the negative again. You have no idea how absolutely frustrating and angering this is for me. I want to reset this "poverty threshold" that I have, but I just don't know how. Just thinking about it makes me want to cry, that's how much anguish I feel. As my mom would say, "I just can't win for losing." Yes, some could say this wouldn't happen if I was working full-time at a (dare I say it) job. But with everything in me, I completely beg to differ. My finances would probably be less honestly because I would have to pay more out in gas and childcare expenses. It's way deeper than just a job though. I have to get back to making an everyday effort to give myself permission to achieve more wealth and abundance than my family has previously seen. I'm still held back by that. I think I am going to read "Secrets of the Millionaire Mind" again. I really need to.
So that was the good news.
Because of an outstanding balance that I let go to collections before I paid it at Park University, they're telling me I have to pay my entire summer tuition up front by next Monday, or my classes will be dropped. That is correct. All $1800 of it!! Need I mention I already have a full financial aid package completed, where they will owe me a refund! The lady gave me the name and email of someone who could possibly waive that for me. So I sent them an email letter today, along with a copy of the paid receipt, and my unemployment check stub. I have asked God for this and thanked Him for granting it. There is nothing more I can do. I literally told the lady in the email that by denying this waiver request, it would completely derail this single mother's plans to go to school in the near future.
Then, to top it all off, my bank account is back in the negative again. You have no idea how absolutely frustrating and angering this is for me. I want to reset this "poverty threshold" that I have, but I just don't know how. Just thinking about it makes me want to cry, that's how much anguish I feel. As my mom would say, "I just can't win for losing." Yes, some could say this wouldn't happen if I was working full-time at a (dare I say it) job. But with everything in me, I completely beg to differ. My finances would probably be less honestly because I would have to pay more out in gas and childcare expenses. It's way deeper than just a job though. I have to get back to making an everyday effort to give myself permission to achieve more wealth and abundance than my family has previously seen. I'm still held back by that. I think I am going to read "Secrets of the Millionaire Mind" again. I really need to.
April 30, 2009
Looking Fabulous!!!!
Okay, I finally did it! I got my hair weaved! By a professional! In a shop! And I LOVE IT!!!
I had it done once before by Viv and it looked decent, but never again since then. I think I am hooked now!!
It's really about the length of my own hair, maybe a half an inch longer. Definitely fuller, that's for sure. But honestly, most would not know this wasn't my hair. It looks THAT good! My stylist says it should last 6-8 weeks before it needs taken down and done again. I already know I will have it done again! The great thing is that I can wash it like I would my hair, though I plan to hit the salon in 2 weeks anyway. I am determined to be a little more "high maintenance", as I call it.
I can't believe how great I feel. I may be motivated enough to get this body back in check too. Especially after watching an episode of the Biggest Loser the other day. Wow! Talk about an inspirational show! When you see women losing 125 pounds, surely it's enough motivation to know you can lose 40! Yes, I have crept back up to around 190 (maybe a little over). So I want to get to between 160 and 170 fit and firm. It's gonna take a lot of effort and sacrifice too. But guess what I know beyond a shadow of a doubt?
I am SO worth it!!!
I had it done once before by Viv and it looked decent, but never again since then. I think I am hooked now!!
It's really about the length of my own hair, maybe a half an inch longer. Definitely fuller, that's for sure. But honestly, most would not know this wasn't my hair. It looks THAT good! My stylist says it should last 6-8 weeks before it needs taken down and done again. I already know I will have it done again! The great thing is that I can wash it like I would my hair, though I plan to hit the salon in 2 weeks anyway. I am determined to be a little more "high maintenance", as I call it.
I can't believe how great I feel. I may be motivated enough to get this body back in check too. Especially after watching an episode of the Biggest Loser the other day. Wow! Talk about an inspirational show! When you see women losing 125 pounds, surely it's enough motivation to know you can lose 40! Yes, I have crept back up to around 190 (maybe a little over). So I want to get to between 160 and 170 fit and firm. It's gonna take a lot of effort and sacrifice too. But guess what I know beyond a shadow of a doubt?
I am SO worth it!!!
April 28, 2009
Not Easily Broken
Cycle time...and I watched that movie! What a beautiful and complicated story! Definitely watch it!
It got me to thinking about a few things too. The wife's mother had a very instrumental part in the marriage. So much so that it almost led to divorce! Turns out she was filled with bitterness and unforgiveness herself from her marriage, so of course that's all she'd project on her daughter's situation. At one point, I actually watched her plant a negative seed in her daughter's mind about him having an affair. Words are very powerful, I cannot stress that enough. Towards the end she told her husband that while she learned how to be a strong, independent woman, she was never taught how to be a supportive, loving, and forgiving wife. That reminded me of something The Officer always quotes that our mother said: "When a man leaves - when not if, because they always leave..."
WTF??? Is it a wonder that I am twice-divorced??
Mind you, had I not heard this constantly said by my sister I would've had no recollection of it. To think that that's something she chooses to keep as a valuable pearl of wisdom is also a testament to my lack of surprise that she is still single!
So then I wonder about myself. What did I learn from two-failed marriages that I was never taught as a young lady?
I can say that - although it was a hard and painful road - I am glad I am here now. I may not be at the point of being a wife again just yet, but I'm more confident than ever before that I'm ready for it! Third times the charm, they say...
It got me to thinking about a few things too. The wife's mother had a very instrumental part in the marriage. So much so that it almost led to divorce! Turns out she was filled with bitterness and unforgiveness herself from her marriage, so of course that's all she'd project on her daughter's situation. At one point, I actually watched her plant a negative seed in her daughter's mind about him having an affair. Words are very powerful, I cannot stress that enough. Towards the end she told her husband that while she learned how to be a strong, independent woman, she was never taught how to be a supportive, loving, and forgiving wife. That reminded me of something The Officer always quotes that our mother said: "When a man leaves - when not if, because they always leave..."
WTF??? Is it a wonder that I am twice-divorced??
Mind you, had I not heard this constantly said by my sister I would've had no recollection of it. To think that that's something she chooses to keep as a valuable pearl of wisdom is also a testament to my lack of surprise that she is still single!
So then I wonder about myself. What did I learn from two-failed marriages that I was never taught as a young lady?
- I learned to pick my battles. Being right or getting the last word isn't always the most important thing. Peace in the home is always better.
- I learned that only two mortals belong in the marriage: the husband and the wife. Not my mom, not his mom, not my friends or my siblings. Usually the advice-givers' situations are as bad or worse than recipient's!
- I learned that without a strong foundation resting in God, the marriage will surely fail. The minute we as a couple began to stray from God in my first marriage, the trials came in like a tsunami. Obviously, we drowned.
- I learned to be supportive of my husband...even if I don't necessarily agree with the idea!
- I learned to be respectful of my husband, at all times and in all situations. This also means not allowing others (read:family and friends) to disrespect him either.
- I learned that no matter what anyone else says, intimacy is a MAJOR part of the marriage. When that deteriorates under normal circumstances, so does the rest of the relationship.
- I learned that it's okay not to be head of household!!
- I learned that I am not afraid to be a biblically-based submissive wife to my God-fearing husband. And it doesn't make me less of a "strong black woman" to want to be one either!!
I can say that - although it was a hard and painful road - I am glad I am here now. I may not be at the point of being a wife again just yet, but I'm more confident than ever before that I'm ready for it! Third times the charm, they say...
April 5, 2009
Just One More Thing...
Having been completely engulfed into the fiction world lately, I have gotten the bug again. Oh yes, I am one of those Twilight people...100%! I even have a keychain that says "I Love Boys Who Sparkle". In the next couple of weeks, I'll have a shirt that says something about Dr. Carlisle Cullen, too! What an epic love story between Edward and Bella.
The author, Stephenie Meyer, is like a month and a half younger than me! Talk about feeling like a slacker! Twilight started as a fantastic dream, that she just continued to write the story when she was awake. Seriously, wow!
Then there's my other favorite, Karen Kingsbury, who is a Christian author. She writes Christian fiction, very inspiring and emotional. Like the one I just finished titled Ever After, which had me bawling through like 50 pages like I was watching a chick flick. But it wasn't the romance, it was the death of a soldier in Iraq. All that he felt, all those he left behind, and the show of support from so many because of his sacrifice. The kicker about that book is that she says she wrote it in 5 days! Five days!
So of course I'm thinking, "I bet I could do that." The question is when could I slow my ADD mind down enough to focus? lol I do plan to give it a try, that much I know. I could take any one of many of the stories of my life, do some tweaking, make the ending I want...and tah-dah! I think I can, I really do. And so I shall!
The author, Stephenie Meyer, is like a month and a half younger than me! Talk about feeling like a slacker! Twilight started as a fantastic dream, that she just continued to write the story when she was awake. Seriously, wow!
Then there's my other favorite, Karen Kingsbury, who is a Christian author. She writes Christian fiction, very inspiring and emotional. Like the one I just finished titled Ever After, which had me bawling through like 50 pages like I was watching a chick flick. But it wasn't the romance, it was the death of a soldier in Iraq. All that he felt, all those he left behind, and the show of support from so many because of his sacrifice. The kicker about that book is that she says she wrote it in 5 days! Five days!
So of course I'm thinking, "I bet I could do that." The question is when could I slow my ADD mind down enough to focus? lol I do plan to give it a try, that much I know. I could take any one of many of the stories of my life, do some tweaking, make the ending I want...and tah-dah! I think I can, I really do. And so I shall!
March 14, 2009
Useless...Kinda
I feel like I am drifting along aimlessly. Like a dead ship floating in the vast ocean. Things are going horribly at the old job: mandatory 5-hour/week cuts, pay freeze, no 401k matching, no raises. Then to top it all off, they just found out that the company is shutting down the office they are in, so if they want to keep their jobs, they will have to drive to the main building which is a 40 minute from the current office! I am SO THANKFUL I am not faced with that dilemma, on top of the weird schedules they are offering with this new shorter workweek. So very grateful.
But on the other hand, I am just living off the state right now. May as well be a welfare mom at this rate! Yeah, I said it! What? I have 2 more months of unemployment left, then I am on my own. Sink or Float. What am I going to do?
I choose neither!!! Sinking is NOT an option, and floating ain't so grand either! I would rather get this engine roaring and take off full steam ahead!!!!!
As far as the title? I feel I am more of a liability than an asset right now. I mean what am I offering Dante right now but 5 additional mouths to feed? It's not like I have the means to contribute right now, so that burden would all be on him. Who the hell wants to sign up for that?? Really, I am no better right now than a welfare mom that lives to collect a check every month to sit on her Apple Bottom-covered ass! I want to be more. I desire to be more. I AM more. God put this burning desire in my heart, and nothing I do or don't do will quell that desire for my own business! Nothing left to do but pound the pavement.
The shoe company said it best:
JUST DO IT!
But on the other hand, I am just living off the state right now. May as well be a welfare mom at this rate! Yeah, I said it! What? I have 2 more months of unemployment left, then I am on my own. Sink or Float. What am I going to do?
I choose neither!!! Sinking is NOT an option, and floating ain't so grand either! I would rather get this engine roaring and take off full steam ahead!!!!!
As far as the title? I feel I am more of a liability than an asset right now. I mean what am I offering Dante right now but 5 additional mouths to feed? It's not like I have the means to contribute right now, so that burden would all be on him. Who the hell wants to sign up for that?? Really, I am no better right now than a welfare mom that lives to collect a check every month to sit on her Apple Bottom-covered ass! I want to be more. I desire to be more. I AM more. God put this burning desire in my heart, and nothing I do or don't do will quell that desire for my own business! Nothing left to do but pound the pavement.
The shoe company said it best:
JUST DO IT!
March 9, 2009
Strange Weekend
Well, the good news is that Bruzer's B-Day went well. I will expand on that tomorrow though. I'm pretty bummed right now. The BFF came into town this weekend...and surprise, surprise I didn't get to see her at all! I mean she came in Friday and left Saturday so it was a quick trip. She also had her new guy Armando with her too though. Wouldn't it have made sense for the BFF to meet the new beau??? She couldn't even stop by on her way out of town on Saturday.
Granted I let her off the hook on Saturday, but that's how I am. She sounded like she was in a dilemma about stopping off at my house on her back to the Chi, so I just saved her the dilemma by telling her no worries. Actually, it was more like 'I guess we'll just see you when we come up there in a couple of months'...to which she replied she would be back here in a couple of weeks....to which I dryly replied 'Well maybe I'll get to see you then.' I'm learning to be a very slow to anger person, something I am proud of. Until the anger hits! How does she really think I feel knowing that it was more important for her to see a two-year-old than her best friend?!?!?! This little kid wasn't the one she was calling at the crack of dawn most mornings when she needed to talk and no one else would understand. The kid was not the one that suffered in silence with her own issues because she demanded things be all about her for that time being. That was ME! And I would gladly do it again, because that's what friends do!! But am I a priority on the list for 10 minutes even when you come to my 'neck of the woods' to visit? NOPE!
So how am I supposed to feel? Can someone tell me that?
Granted I let her off the hook on Saturday, but that's how I am. She sounded like she was in a dilemma about stopping off at my house on her back to the Chi, so I just saved her the dilemma by telling her no worries. Actually, it was more like 'I guess we'll just see you when we come up there in a couple of months'...to which she replied she would be back here in a couple of weeks....to which I dryly replied 'Well maybe I'll get to see you then.' I'm learning to be a very slow to anger person, something I am proud of. Until the anger hits! How does she really think I feel knowing that it was more important for her to see a two-year-old than her best friend?!?!?! This little kid wasn't the one she was calling at the crack of dawn most mornings when she needed to talk and no one else would understand. The kid was not the one that suffered in silence with her own issues because she demanded things be all about her for that time being. That was ME! And I would gladly do it again, because that's what friends do!! But am I a priority on the list for 10 minutes even when you come to my 'neck of the woods' to visit? NOPE!
So how am I supposed to feel? Can someone tell me that?
March 3, 2009
Getting back on track
Today was good. It was productive, and I didn't even stress when a setback occurred. UNLIKE yesterday, that is! I gave up on that new bank. I found out my old bank had closed my account. I went there and paid the balance due, and they allowed to reopen an account with them. Unfortunately I still have to wait for the much-needed debit card to come in the mail. But I did submit everything to the new travel host, and that's all they're waiting on.
I thought I could skate by with the old card and just update them with the new one, but they called me today to let me know they tried a preauth and it failed. OMG...just thought about it! Duh!! I can use my other debit card until my new check card comes in!!! I don't know why I didn't think of that!! I can't wait to call first thing in the morning! The good thing was, I didn't even stress about it.
In other news, I had my ultrasound today. They did the test two different ways, and found no fibroids. Yay! She also found no ovarian cysts. Yay! She did say there was 'junk' in my uterine lining, and I told her about the chemical D&C I am in the midst of. Her (the technician's) reply was she hoped it worked so I would have to have an actual one in the operating room. D&C stands for 'dilation & curettage'...which is where they basically scrape your uterine walls squeeky clean. Gonna try to avoid that one! I am starting to think that perhaps it is just hormonal. But I will wait to see if I get a call about abnormal lab results first, before jumping to conclusions. I'm just glad the ball is rolling on this!
And in the back of my mind I am wondering if this had anything to do with my tubes now being tied, and could reversal reverse these effects. Worth a thought...
I have decided after taking my blood pressure several times this evening on my new home monitor, that I can't keep taking chances. I want to be healthy and vibrant for a lot of years to come. Dig these cold hard facts from the Stroke Association's website:
Woooooow!!! Harsh, a little? Hell yeah! As it should be! Even on this new medicine for 6days now, I still am testing at Stage 1 Hypertension levels...AND getting dizzy at times too!! Excuses are bullshit, I've gotta get moving!! I've got a LOT to do, starting immediately and time is ticking!! I know, I know....I have said it all before. It may take me a minute, but it's finally sinking in now. I PROMISE!!
I thought I could skate by with the old card and just update them with the new one, but they called me today to let me know they tried a preauth and it failed. OMG...just thought about it! Duh!! I can use my other debit card until my new check card comes in!!! I don't know why I didn't think of that!! I can't wait to call first thing in the morning! The good thing was, I didn't even stress about it.
In other news, I had my ultrasound today. They did the test two different ways, and found no fibroids. Yay! She also found no ovarian cysts. Yay! She did say there was 'junk' in my uterine lining, and I told her about the chemical D&C I am in the midst of. Her (the technician's) reply was she hoped it worked so I would have to have an actual one in the operating room. D&C stands for 'dilation & curettage'...which is where they basically scrape your uterine walls squeeky clean. Gonna try to avoid that one! I am starting to think that perhaps it is just hormonal. But I will wait to see if I get a call about abnormal lab results first, before jumping to conclusions. I'm just glad the ball is rolling on this!
And in the back of my mind I am wondering if this had anything to do with my tubes now being tied, and could reversal reverse these effects. Worth a thought...
I have decided after taking my blood pressure several times this evening on my new home monitor, that I can't keep taking chances. I want to be healthy and vibrant for a lot of years to come. Dig these cold hard facts from the Stroke Association's website:
Heart disease and stroke are major health risks for all people. But African Americans are at particularly high risk. Consider this:
- Blacks have almost twice the risk of first-ever strokes compared to whites.
- Blacks have higher death rates for stroke compared to whites.
- The prevalence of high blood pressure in African Americans in the United States is the highest in the world.
- Among non-Hispanic blacks age 20 and older, 62.9 percent of men and 77.2 percent of women are overweight or obese.
- In 2001, 27.7 percent of black or African-Americans only, used any tobacco product. Heavy cigarette smoking approximately doubles a person’s risk for stroke when compared to light smokers..
- Black women have higher prevalence rates of high blood pressure, obesity, physical inactivity, and diabetes than white women.
Woooooow!!! Harsh, a little? Hell yeah! As it should be! Even on this new medicine for 6days now, I still am testing at Stage 1 Hypertension levels...AND getting dizzy at times too!! Excuses are bullshit, I've gotta get moving!! I've got a LOT to do, starting immediately and time is ticking!! I know, I know....I have said it all before. It may take me a minute, but it's finally sinking in now. I PROMISE!!
February 27, 2009
A Bad Day
Talk about unproductive! Boy today was that day! I woke up with a slight headache, and it just progressed as the morning progressed. By the time I dropped the last kid off, I was barely making it. I stopped at Hardee's and got strawberry biscuits, then came straight home. I barely mustered through one of them, when I decided to lie down on the loveseat. I was trying to work on a flyer for a client - the guy who cuts Bruzer's hair now, and a friend of Viv. I sent him a text to say I was moving slow due to not feeling well and would try to get it to him this afternoon. He was so sweet though! He called me back immediately and told me not to worry about it today if I wasn't feeling well, and to make sure to take of myself. I thought that was nice. Wayne called to check on me, after I sent him a text saying I wasn't feeling well today too. He called back later to see if I was any better and asked me to call the doctor (which he knew I wouldn't do) to see if that was normal.
Meanwhile, I send Dante a text to say I wish he was here so I could lay on him because I wasn't feeling so well. His reply? 'Sorry'
Yes, he did lose a brownie point for that one!
Problem is, I went to the doctor yesterday and was put on a different hypertension medication. The last one was starting to make me dizzy a little too much...when I bothered to take it, that is. So, I knew that the debilitating headache today was due to my body trying to adjust to the new medication. That didn't make didn't with the discomfort any easier though!!
So, needless to say I got nothing done today. I finally peeled myself off the loveseat at about 2p. That gave me enough time to try and eat something, then head off to start picking up kids again.
SO that means, as long as I am feeling good tomorrow morning, I get to go do a few things I didn't do today. I have to pay something on my power bill ASAP. Since I have no news from the banker yet about everything being clear, I will have to deposit in the old bank so that I can get a new host agency ASAP. If necessary, I will change everything over later, but I can't wait past Monday to have a new host agency in place. Business calls!!
Meanwhile, I send Dante a text to say I wish he was here so I could lay on him because I wasn't feeling so well. His reply? 'Sorry'
Yes, he did lose a brownie point for that one!
Problem is, I went to the doctor yesterday and was put on a different hypertension medication. The last one was starting to make me dizzy a little too much...when I bothered to take it, that is. So, I knew that the debilitating headache today was due to my body trying to adjust to the new medication. That didn't make didn't with the discomfort any easier though!!
So, needless to say I got nothing done today. I finally peeled myself off the loveseat at about 2p. That gave me enough time to try and eat something, then head off to start picking up kids again.
SO that means, as long as I am feeling good tomorrow morning, I get to go do a few things I didn't do today. I have to pay something on my power bill ASAP. Since I have no news from the banker yet about everything being clear, I will have to deposit in the old bank so that I can get a new host agency ASAP. If necessary, I will change everything over later, but I can't wait past Monday to have a new host agency in place. Business calls!!
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